I love making lists - everyday at work at the end of the day I make myself a list of things that need to be done the next day. I make lists in my head all the time, it makes things feel more manageable and there's something very satisfactory about checking off something that has been completed on the list. My to do list today is very long, and kind of daunting. I have one for both work and home and here it is:
1. MB - set to pay
2. MB - enter permits
3. Alta - enter permits
4. BC - enter permits
5. BC - attach permits
6. MB - attach permits (1302)
7. Do Craigslist ad - we are selling the truck, or going to attempt to, and I need to get it on there!
8. Register the Civic - Tim got a new car (old, but new to him) to be his everyday drive car so we can attempt to get rid of the truck
9. Wash dishes!!!! - I am starting to loathe going home to my awfully messy kitchen/house
10. Do laundry - have I mentioned my house is an absolute wreck?
11. Buy an office chair for the house - I have rearranged my living area so my old 'office chair' is now a living area chair. It doesn't match, but I will tackle that later.
12. Finish Mom's website - we made great strides last night, and I hope to have it totally done soon!
My list feels overwhelming - and I long to have a clean house and planned meals daily, I just don't know how to get there. Perhaps this week will be the week I get it done!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Monday, August 22, 2011
Sad Days
Life is full of oddities. My Aunt Connie died about 2 weeks ago. I did not feel compelled to go to her funeral. Perhaps that is calloused, but it doesn't really matter to me. I liked her, she was nice and vivacious, but to be truthful she was a bit too much for me. A little too loud, a little too intrusive. I was saddened by her death, mostly for my father and her husband, but I was not overtly moved one way or the other. I thought something was wrong with me, and perhaps there is - but I cannot identify it, so I must move on.
My sister's father in law passed away on Thursday of this past week. This made me sad as well, but sadder than my aunt's passing. I didn't know the man - in fact I had seen him twice ever, but it was much more sudden, and he was so much younger. I don't know if these were the reasons that made me more sad, but these are the facts. I went to his funeral, a funeral of a man I didn't know. I did it because my sister and brother in law were there facing this loss, and I needed to go. I cried at this funeral of a man I didn't know, not for him - but for those he left behind. For my brother in law that now has no father, for my sister trying to support him through this time. Funerals aren't for the dead - they're for the living. I have said this countless times, and it rings true still today. I went to a funeral of a man I barely knew, and cried for the loss of him in my loved ones lives. Perhaps I am not so weird after all? Perhaps that is wishful thinking.
My sister's father in law passed away on Thursday of this past week. This made me sad as well, but sadder than my aunt's passing. I didn't know the man - in fact I had seen him twice ever, but it was much more sudden, and he was so much younger. I don't know if these were the reasons that made me more sad, but these are the facts. I went to his funeral, a funeral of a man I didn't know. I did it because my sister and brother in law were there facing this loss, and I needed to go. I cried at this funeral of a man I didn't know, not for him - but for those he left behind. For my brother in law that now has no father, for my sister trying to support him through this time. Funerals aren't for the dead - they're for the living. I have said this countless times, and it rings true still today. I went to a funeral of a man I barely knew, and cried for the loss of him in my loved ones lives. Perhaps I am not so weird after all? Perhaps that is wishful thinking.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
The Day My Son Ate My Brownie
So I have had an eventful evening/morning. It all started last night. (cue flash back music and the fade into another scene).
Last night we went to dinner with my mom. She graciously picked up my son from daycare and we met her at the restaurant. Then we went home, and started our nightly rituals...(and I watched the movie 'Lemonade Mouth' on the Disney Channel...LOVED IT but I have a penchant for teeny bopper movies and the Disney Channel in general).
Then I realized I couldn't find my cell phone. This is important for several reasons: 1. This is how I wake up, 2. Anyone who knows me, KNOWS I cannot live without my phone. 3. This is how I wake up.
So, I was frantically running around trying to figure out where my phone was - and calling it incessantly. Finally someone answered. Apparently I left it at the restaurant, and had to get there in 10 min in order to retrieve it. SO...i hightailed it over to the restaurant and got it. I got home, and my son was crying - AND I had to pee, btw my husband was already sleeping at this point. So I peed, and then got my son out of his bed. And apparently pee is the reason he woke up too. Apparently he had somehow gotten his diaper off and proceeded to pee all over the bed and himself, and let's face it laying in pee would make anyone cranky. So, I woke up my husband, sponge bathed and changed my son and calmed him down. Meanwhile, my husband was changing the sheets and making the necessary whatevers to the bed - I don't know I didn't ask. So I finally got him back in bed, and it was about 11:30pm. Not too bad, right?
I thought so too! Then I made our lunches (mine and Tim's) because that is how we eat everyday and then I settled down for the night. And started reading, this is my normal routine.
Then my sister texts me, and it was traumatic, but I don't want to share it here, because it is not my story to tell. But because she was having such spotty reception, I ended up staying up until almost 3 to get a sporadic story via texts from her.
Then this morning, I woke up (late as per usual), and took a shower and did my hair and the normal getting ready things. I got Dylan up and did the same. He was in a pretty good mood, actually which was awesome because I am still so so so so tired. Anyhow, he was in a good mood, until we got in the car. Apparently, he is all about my lunch box. He knows I bring food in it, and today he was hungry. So I had to go through everything in my lunch box and he finally settled on my brownie. So I gave it to him, and before you get all excited it was a Fiber One 90 calorie brownie, and let's face it - doughnuts are SO much worse. Then I promptly proceeded to start sneezing my head off. I do not think this is at all in relation to giving D the brownie, but it is an interesting coincidence! And I have been sneezing my head off ever since! It is now almost noon, and if my sneezing fits subside, maybe I'll have a chance to miss my brownie, but probably not - now more than anything I just want a nap!
Last night we went to dinner with my mom. She graciously picked up my son from daycare and we met her at the restaurant. Then we went home, and started our nightly rituals...(and I watched the movie 'Lemonade Mouth' on the Disney Channel...LOVED IT but I have a penchant for teeny bopper movies and the Disney Channel in general).
Then I realized I couldn't find my cell phone. This is important for several reasons: 1. This is how I wake up, 2. Anyone who knows me, KNOWS I cannot live without my phone. 3. This is how I wake up.
So, I was frantically running around trying to figure out where my phone was - and calling it incessantly. Finally someone answered. Apparently I left it at the restaurant, and had to get there in 10 min in order to retrieve it. SO...i hightailed it over to the restaurant and got it. I got home, and my son was crying - AND I had to pee, btw my husband was already sleeping at this point. So I peed, and then got my son out of his bed. And apparently pee is the reason he woke up too. Apparently he had somehow gotten his diaper off and proceeded to pee all over the bed and himself, and let's face it laying in pee would make anyone cranky. So, I woke up my husband, sponge bathed and changed my son and calmed him down. Meanwhile, my husband was changing the sheets and making the necessary whatevers to the bed - I don't know I didn't ask. So I finally got him back in bed, and it was about 11:30pm. Not too bad, right?
I thought so too! Then I made our lunches (mine and Tim's) because that is how we eat everyday and then I settled down for the night. And started reading, this is my normal routine.
Then my sister texts me, and it was traumatic, but I don't want to share it here, because it is not my story to tell. But because she was having such spotty reception, I ended up staying up until almost 3 to get a sporadic story via texts from her.
Then this morning, I woke up (late as per usual), and took a shower and did my hair and the normal getting ready things. I got Dylan up and did the same. He was in a pretty good mood, actually which was awesome because I am still so so so so tired. Anyhow, he was in a good mood, until we got in the car. Apparently, he is all about my lunch box. He knows I bring food in it, and today he was hungry. So I had to go through everything in my lunch box and he finally settled on my brownie. So I gave it to him, and before you get all excited it was a Fiber One 90 calorie brownie, and let's face it - doughnuts are SO much worse. Then I promptly proceeded to start sneezing my head off. I do not think this is at all in relation to giving D the brownie, but it is an interesting coincidence! And I have been sneezing my head off ever since! It is now almost noon, and if my sneezing fits subside, maybe I'll have a chance to miss my brownie, but probably not - now more than anything I just want a nap!
Monday, August 15, 2011
The Purple Couch and Other Randomness
So last week, I think it was last week, I went on and on and on about how much I love THIS couch. So this past Sunday, my husband and I and our almost 2 year old son went to the Ashley Furniture Store in search of the couch. But they didn't have it there. I was majorly deflated by this news.
Did I mention I took my almost 2 year old son with us? Perhaps I should let you know what that was like. It was like running all over the store trying to get him to stop running all over the store, but he thought it was a hilarious game, and did not want to stand still, and WOULD not tolerate being held to the point if you picked him up he would scream bloody murder. Yes, it was lovely, thanks for asking. ANYHOW, I was disappointed that they didn't have my couch, and my husband talked me into walking around and trying to find something else. So we did, and he loved this red couch, and so I agreed and he went to purchase it. I walked outside with my screaming child to spare the customers and employees of Ashley Furniture from having to experience the noise, and to spare myself some embarrassment. Oh who am I kidding? My embarrassment meter is out the door.
THEN, I started having second thoughts. :) So I did what any woman would do who had changed their mind, I texted my husband who was in the store and said : "Me and D are outside, can we get the purple couch instead?" My husband is great, he just said..."Really? LOL, ok" Then the deal was done, and I got the purple couch I have wanted since I laid eyes on it...AND it will be here the 23rd :D. I just hope I love it as much in person!
Did I mention I took my almost 2 year old son with us? Perhaps I should let you know what that was like. It was like running all over the store trying to get him to stop running all over the store, but he thought it was a hilarious game, and did not want to stand still, and WOULD not tolerate being held to the point if you picked him up he would scream bloody murder. Yes, it was lovely, thanks for asking. ANYHOW, I was disappointed that they didn't have my couch, and my husband talked me into walking around and trying to find something else. So we did, and he loved this red couch, and so I agreed and he went to purchase it. I walked outside with my screaming child to spare the customers and employees of Ashley Furniture from having to experience the noise, and to spare myself some embarrassment. Oh who am I kidding? My embarrassment meter is out the door.
THEN, I started having second thoughts. :) So I did what any woman would do who had changed their mind, I texted my husband who was in the store and said : "Me and D are outside, can we get the purple couch instead?" My husband is great, he just said..."Really? LOL, ok" Then the deal was done, and I got the purple couch I have wanted since I laid eyes on it...AND it will be here the 23rd :D. I just hope I love it as much in person!
Friday, August 12, 2011
Please Let Me Be Able to Fix This!
That is my silent prayer today. I hate messing up - at work especially. I feel an unnatural need to do things perfectly, because my family depends on my income. I an constantly afraid something I have done will make me lose my job!
So today, I find out they ordered tax rolls, that I checked out and apparently they do not have the complete sets of information that we need. GRRR. PLEASE let me find out a way to get it without having to pay an arm and a leg - and it can be done quickly!
So this is my struggle today - among other things, and this is why I am praying this prayer over and over again. I want to do my job to the best of my ability, but I mess up - I am just trying to recover from the mess up. Wish me luck!
So today, I find out they ordered tax rolls, that I checked out and apparently they do not have the complete sets of information that we need. GRRR. PLEASE let me find out a way to get it without having to pay an arm and a leg - and it can be done quickly!
So this is my struggle today - among other things, and this is why I am praying this prayer over and over again. I want to do my job to the best of my ability, but I mess up - I am just trying to recover from the mess up. Wish me luck!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Couches & Stars
So, incase you haven't noticed...I like stars. As in the shape...I'm not so much into the actual thing in the sky defined as :A fixed luminous point in the night sky that is a large, remote incandescent body like the sun. Just so you know what I'm talking about.
I need to redecorate Dylan's room. At the moment it's a conglomeration of things that I had in my old room when I owned that house in Chickasha. It looks half done. So there are western style stars on one wall of his room, and I think he needs more or something different up there. I don't know if he's going to be a western kind of guy. Perhaps I can just find other stars that aren't so westerny to put sporadically in the mix to help change it up. I also want to find his name that I painted right after he was born, it was cute :) and he needs more wall decor.
Also, I want a couch. Like a lot. Its not just that I want a place to sit while I"m watching TV, it's also that I want something to take up space in the middle of my living room so my husband and son are less inclined to dump crap all over the empty space. Good motivation yes? I don't even know if that will help...sadly enough.
So I have been perusing couches, and for some reason I totally love THIS one. I also think THIS one looks awesomely comfortable. Perhaps sometime this weekend I will be able to convince my hubby to go couch shopping with me! :)
I need to redecorate Dylan's room. At the moment it's a conglomeration of things that I had in my old room when I owned that house in Chickasha. It looks half done. So there are western style stars on one wall of his room, and I think he needs more or something different up there. I don't know if he's going to be a western kind of guy. Perhaps I can just find other stars that aren't so westerny to put sporadically in the mix to help change it up. I also want to find his name that I painted right after he was born, it was cute :) and he needs more wall decor.
Also, I want a couch. Like a lot. Its not just that I want a place to sit while I"m watching TV, it's also that I want something to take up space in the middle of my living room so my husband and son are less inclined to dump crap all over the empty space. Good motivation yes? I don't even know if that will help...sadly enough.
So I have been perusing couches, and for some reason I totally love THIS one. I also think THIS one looks awesomely comfortable. Perhaps sometime this weekend I will be able to convince my hubby to go couch shopping with me! :)
Monday, August 8, 2011
Looking Back - to Now
My mom came across some old family photos of us, and it was cool to think back on that time and look forward to where we are now. I've been thinking about it a lot the past couple of days :).
Lets take a look, shall we? I will recap in the condensed version :).
My sister Jarryn: Now she is a Junior in college, majoring in physical training or some such medical thing. She got a scholarship to McNeese University in Lake Charles, LA to be a trainer for their sports program. In the family photo she is probably 3ish, a lot has happened in her life since then...now she's 20. She loves family, and friends, and going to the movies, the color green, and her sorority - and of course training.
My sister Joelle: She is now working for the Houston Rockets, and has been married almost 2 years. In the picture she was about 8. Since then, she's graduated from High School, and U of H for college, she's gotten married and started her profession as a wonderful member of the sales team for the Rockets. She actually won a rookie award for the most sales in the NBA last year! She loves traveling, being active, swimming and giving swim lessons, playing 42, the Dallas Cowboys and of course the Rockets - who are also her husband's all time favorite team by the way.
My Mom: She is now working for Mayde Creek High School as an 11th grade US AP history teacher, and she's awesome at it :). She also does a lot of teacher training, and is sought after all over the USA, and spends much of her summer 'vacation' traipsing around training other teachers. Since this picture, which was approximately 17 years ago, she has gone through a cancer battle, moved to a new city - started a new job, and is still a member of the praise team at church. She loves to read, and watch musicals, visit with her children and Dylan, and see new places that have influenced her heritage.
My Dad: Is now working for a seismic company, and is very good at selling data across the US. He is working for Geokinetics, and is no longer self-employed. Since this picture, he has lost several siblings, and has gone through his own near death experience, and is forever changed by it. He enjoys singing, golfing, and golf tv, and golfing, and his children. He was a great rock for our family and remains this still.
Me: Well in this picture I was about 13, and since then I have done much. Some to be proud of, and some I have learned from. I graduated HS, and College, and got married and had a child. I now enjoy reading (still...always), music, playing games, watching musicals/movies, and hanging out with friends and family.
In a nutshell, I guess my family has grown up, and we have experienced several things that have made us grow closer as a family. It's fun to see what we we looked like then, with great expectations, and figure out whether or not those expectations were realized.
Lets take a look, shall we? I will recap in the condensed version :).
My sister Jarryn: Now she is a Junior in college, majoring in physical training or some such medical thing. She got a scholarship to McNeese University in Lake Charles, LA to be a trainer for their sports program. In the family photo she is probably 3ish, a lot has happened in her life since then...now she's 20. She loves family, and friends, and going to the movies, the color green, and her sorority - and of course training.
My sister Joelle: She is now working for the Houston Rockets, and has been married almost 2 years. In the picture she was about 8. Since then, she's graduated from High School, and U of H for college, she's gotten married and started her profession as a wonderful member of the sales team for the Rockets. She actually won a rookie award for the most sales in the NBA last year! She loves traveling, being active, swimming and giving swim lessons, playing 42, the Dallas Cowboys and of course the Rockets - who are also her husband's all time favorite team by the way.
My Mom: She is now working for Mayde Creek High School as an 11th grade US AP history teacher, and she's awesome at it :). She also does a lot of teacher training, and is sought after all over the USA, and spends much of her summer 'vacation' traipsing around training other teachers. Since this picture, which was approximately 17 years ago, she has gone through a cancer battle, moved to a new city - started a new job, and is still a member of the praise team at church. She loves to read, and watch musicals, visit with her children and Dylan, and see new places that have influenced her heritage.
My Dad: Is now working for a seismic company, and is very good at selling data across the US. He is working for Geokinetics, and is no longer self-employed. Since this picture, he has lost several siblings, and has gone through his own near death experience, and is forever changed by it. He enjoys singing, golfing, and golf tv, and golfing, and his children. He was a great rock for our family and remains this still.
Me: Well in this picture I was about 13, and since then I have done much. Some to be proud of, and some I have learned from. I graduated HS, and College, and got married and had a child. I now enjoy reading (still...always), music, playing games, watching musicals/movies, and hanging out with friends and family.
In a nutshell, I guess my family has grown up, and we have experienced several things that have made us grow closer as a family. It's fun to see what we we looked like then, with great expectations, and figure out whether or not those expectations were realized.
Friday, August 5, 2011
Sad Remembering
Today I was reminded of a time in my life that I haven't thought of in a very long time. I was only 8 years old, but I remember the day clearly, and because it's on my mind now, you get to read about it :).
I was at my Grandma's house, because that's where I went everyday after school. I was outside playing with a friend that lived around the corner (her name was Brianna). We had a lot of fun together, as we often did, and as per usual her sister came to get her to come home. Except this day her sister, who was in Jr. High I believe, was crying. She was almost in hysterics. I didn't understand why or the severity of what her words meant then, and probably didn't for a long while afterwards. In fact, even today it touched new heartstrings and made me think of things I hadn't before.
All she said was "There was an accident, and I don't know what happened to some of my friends."
Now, in the days after this we had an assembly at school, and moments of silence in remembrance. There was a huge memorial service.
21 children died due to that 'accident'.
A Dr. Pepper truck ran a stop sign and hit a school bus, that went into a caliche pit, submerged in water. 18 children died the day of the accident, and 3 more followed behind.
Thinking about this accident makes me so incredibly sad, thinking about the distress all these parents of these children went through...waiting to see if their children were one of the ones who died...the agony they felt when they were told they would never see them grow up. It's awful.
Then I think about a song I had heard not so long after one of the anniversaries of this accident. It is kinda hokey sounding and not exactly directly correlated, but the message was comforting. It made me remember my faith, and how we are always held in HIS hands. That in everything we have gone through and have yet to experience we have a guiding light, a stronghold if we accept it. The song has always been close to my heart, not just because of this particular tragedy...but that's another story for another time. Here it is.
This whole thing just to say,
I remember.
I was at my Grandma's house, because that's where I went everyday after school. I was outside playing with a friend that lived around the corner (her name was Brianna). We had a lot of fun together, as we often did, and as per usual her sister came to get her to come home. Except this day her sister, who was in Jr. High I believe, was crying. She was almost in hysterics. I didn't understand why or the severity of what her words meant then, and probably didn't for a long while afterwards. In fact, even today it touched new heartstrings and made me think of things I hadn't before.
All she said was "There was an accident, and I don't know what happened to some of my friends."
Now, in the days after this we had an assembly at school, and moments of silence in remembrance. There was a huge memorial service.
21 children died due to that 'accident'.
A Dr. Pepper truck ran a stop sign and hit a school bus, that went into a caliche pit, submerged in water. 18 children died the day of the accident, and 3 more followed behind.
Thinking about this accident makes me so incredibly sad, thinking about the distress all these parents of these children went through...waiting to see if their children were one of the ones who died...the agony they felt when they were told they would never see them grow up. It's awful.
Then I think about a song I had heard not so long after one of the anniversaries of this accident. It is kinda hokey sounding and not exactly directly correlated, but the message was comforting. It made me remember my faith, and how we are always held in HIS hands. That in everything we have gone through and have yet to experience we have a guiding light, a stronghold if we accept it. The song has always been close to my heart, not just because of this particular tragedy...but that's another story for another time. Here it is.
This whole thing just to say,
I remember.
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Half Done
So I have tons of stuff on my To Do List (and yes, I actually make this list and keep it updated). Currently on my list is :
1. FINISH MOM'S WEBSITE!!!! - Yes it's written just like that...and the website is for her AP program at school, she's super involved in it and wants to get kids on board with taking AP classes. If you are interested the work in progress looks like THIS.
2. Find a couch - My sisters best friend has graciously offered to give me one of her cast off couches, and I have no idea what it looks like, but it would be exciting just to have a couch. Maybe in the future I'll buy the one I want. Something neutral, kid friendly, and comfy that isn't ugly.
3. Finish unpacking - I have been in my apartment since the end of March and I still haven't unpacked or put away everything or made it pretty the way I want - hopefully that is coming soon...THEN I will post pics to my adoring fans :) (or the couple of people that actually look at my blog occasionally :)).
4. Tag Tim's Truck - uhh...this truck is a pain, and we need to get it tagged so we can hopefully sell it, and we haven't tagged it yet because we don't have the money to do so.
5. Buy some kind of organizer for D's room - this boy has toys EVERYWHERE, and I am hoping some kind of place to put them will help him with his need to have everything in it's place. :)
6. Go to the store and buy an organizer for work, a planner for work, and a scale - so I have recently gone on a diet, but I have no idea what kind of progress I am making, because I do not own a scale. The stuff for work I am hoping will make me more organized :).
7. Send out D's Pictures - So Dylan got his school pictures done in May, and I have yet to send them to anyone, I know I'm awful.
8. Buy Christmas Cards - So this is a weird one maybe, because it is August, but I love Christmas, and I love giving and receiving cards it makes me feel cheery, and it takes me a while to find ones that I love.
9. Get a loan for a new car - If Tim's truck doesn't sell this is my next step, to trade in both vehicles for one car.
10. Get D's hair cut - it's that time again, he needs one!
So maybe this isn't an overly long list, but this doesn't include my day to day stuff...it's just the extra that I need to get done. Kinda a pain. THEN, my friend introduced me to this really cool website that I'm excited about putting down my ideas on...perhaps I will get inspired to finish decorating my house :)!
1. FINISH MOM'S WEBSITE!!!! - Yes it's written just like that...and the website is for her AP program at school, she's super involved in it and wants to get kids on board with taking AP classes. If you are interested the work in progress looks like THIS.
2. Find a couch - My sisters best friend has graciously offered to give me one of her cast off couches, and I have no idea what it looks like, but it would be exciting just to have a couch. Maybe in the future I'll buy the one I want. Something neutral, kid friendly, and comfy that isn't ugly.
3. Finish unpacking - I have been in my apartment since the end of March and I still haven't unpacked or put away everything or made it pretty the way I want - hopefully that is coming soon...THEN I will post pics to my adoring fans :) (or the couple of people that actually look at my blog occasionally :)).
4. Tag Tim's Truck - uhh...this truck is a pain, and we need to get it tagged so we can hopefully sell it, and we haven't tagged it yet because we don't have the money to do so.
5. Buy some kind of organizer for D's room - this boy has toys EVERYWHERE, and I am hoping some kind of place to put them will help him with his need to have everything in it's place. :)
6. Go to the store and buy an organizer for work, a planner for work, and a scale - so I have recently gone on a diet, but I have no idea what kind of progress I am making, because I do not own a scale. The stuff for work I am hoping will make me more organized :).
7. Send out D's Pictures - So Dylan got his school pictures done in May, and I have yet to send them to anyone, I know I'm awful.
8. Buy Christmas Cards - So this is a weird one maybe, because it is August, but I love Christmas, and I love giving and receiving cards it makes me feel cheery, and it takes me a while to find ones that I love.
9. Get a loan for a new car - If Tim's truck doesn't sell this is my next step, to trade in both vehicles for one car.
10. Get D's hair cut - it's that time again, he needs one!
So maybe this isn't an overly long list, but this doesn't include my day to day stuff...it's just the extra that I need to get done. Kinda a pain. THEN, my friend introduced me to this really cool website that I'm excited about putting down my ideas on...perhaps I will get inspired to finish decorating my house :)!
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