Truths

You know, so many things around me lately have been changing. My life has been a rough ride for about 3 weeks. I have found out a lot of things, about myself and a few things I guess I just didn't want to face about others.
It is rough for me, and I guess everyone, to figure out who their true friends are, who will truly be there when times get tough. And as I found out yesterday the number of people I thought I could count on has decreased by 2. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I know I shouldn't blame them for not being able to be supportive, but I am mad. I was there for these two individuals when no one else wanted to be at different times in their lives. And the one time I need support and someone to lean on all they want to do is act as though I am only trying to outshine them when they feel like all attention should be on themselves.
I am not asking for attention, just support, I don't want to outshine them or take away from what they are doing, but apparently they think everyone in this world is as equally self involved as they are. i didn't mean to start this and rant, but I am truly upset. I invest a lot in people I care about, and I feel like all I did was waste my time on people who don't hold me in any higher esteem than someone they are in constant competition with. I am tired of that. I am not competing...I am trying to live.. when will they see that the only people they have ever been competing against is themselves?