So I have determined what D's party theme will be. With help from friends and family and of course taking into account my little man's own preferences I have come up with theme 'Under Construction'. Dylan loves all things having to do with cars and trucks and dump trucks, so I thought this would be a fun play on the things he likes :).
A reccommendation of party city and a link from a friend showed me there were TONS of stuff I could purchase for the party. I love THIS pinata and think it will be a fun semi organized game maybe even 2 year olds can handle. I was also thinking about filling a plastic pool from Walmart or the like with dirt and getting some trucks like THESE for the kids to play with in the pool/dirt outside whateverness.
As far as food goes, I haven't quite decided yet. I'm debating between pizza, hotdogs or chicken nuggets. What do you think? All three of these are a favorite of D's. Cupcakes are a must, they went over so well last year...but haven't finalized the ideas on those. And of course we will have balls and bubbles, because these are essential for D to play outside. No balloons or streamers or fancy decorations. I will probably get a solid colored plastic table cover that I can tape to an outdoor table, and get some special underconstruction napkins or cups and plates to complete the party decor. What do you think? Not necessarily fantastically creative, but I think it encompasses Dylan and things he likes to do.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Shopping and The Used To Be Friend
So, I want to go shopping. And for the first time since we have lived in Katy (yes I know it hasn't been that long...but money and the strain of not having enough has been a burden Tim and I have carried since before Dylan was born) I can actually go shopping and buy some stuff for myself. Ok, maybe not today, but because I sold my stock (that makes me feel so grown up and important to say) we have enough and some left over for some new clothes!
I am thinking some fun new flats are in order, and some jeans. :) AND tax free weekend is just around the corner! YAY! Ok, I'm done being excited about going shopping.
I know I have wrote on here before in years past about my friend that is not my friend, and is sick. That is confusing yes? Well, ok, here's the deal. I used to have a best friend, and she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which sucked, but we were still fine and I was determined to be a rock for her. Then she got pregnant, had a baby, pushed herself too far, and pushed everyone away...including me. I stuck it out, knowing that one day my friend would be back...but here it is almost 6 years later...and she's still not back. Because I need closure, and maybe I have this affinity to get the last word in? I don't know...anyhow, I emailed her. She never has time enough to actually talk to me on the phone anymore, and I just wanted to get something off my chest and then move on. It's almost as if I needed physical closure, to be able to actually see the words to let go. I have talked about letting go...I have screamed and cried and been angry, but I have never actually done it. I guess part of me wanted her to tell me she wanted to be my friend again, and the majority of myself didn't want to lose what we used to have.
But somehow I have grown up in the past couple of years. I have gotten married, I have had a baby, I have come face to face with my shortcomings and mistakes, and admitted I wasn't big enough to take them on. I feel like I'm different, and I don't need her anymore. That may sound petty, but I used to need her. She was like a security blanket for me, and I held on to that and depended on it way too much.
So anyhow, I emailed her, and YES I'm going to post the whole email here...incase you were wondering. I included with it an email she wrote me, that I had saved. That email she wrote me was years ago, when she was at the bottom of the bottom. She hurt my feelings, she pushed me away, she called me shitty pretty much. I included it so she could remember what we had been through together, and so she knew when I felt like our relationship was forever changed. The message of the email I wrote was 'So you remember, and good luck':
You wrote me this email when you were sick years ago - I still feel like our friendship isn't where it was and you have never gone back to being my friend (this was when hope was a little over a year old) - I don't know if will ever be. The more I think about it - the more I feel like I walked away from our friendship, because I was tired of being hurt. Not given up, just shut it out for a while. You aren't my friend. Not like you used to be. You aren't the person I want to tell everything to anymore, you're not the person who tells me everything. You aren't the person that knows me best - if you even know me at all anymore. I know your life is always full of drama, and you always have some excuse for not talking to me - just know I don't care to hear the excuses anymore, I want action. Perhaps one day when you have time for me, we can be friends like we were before - but if not, it's ok. I don't even know why I'm bothering to tell you anything - it never seems to change anything anyhow - AND to be completely honest, I don't know if I care if it does or not. Good luck with your family and your new baby on the way. Wishing you health and happiness.
Ok, so rereading that, maybe it isn't as much 'closure' as I thought, but I felt it. Like I was finally closing that chapter in my life. Like it didn't matter if she called me back today or in a week, or ever at all. Writing that email was cathartic for me, and it helped me say goodbye, I am not bitter that our friendship didn't work out - I understand people can grow apart and go different ways, good luck. Do you think I conveyed that?
Regardless, I feel that I am in a better place, and if she called me tomorrow, I would talk to her...but it wouldn't be like it used to be, and I wouldn't expect that from her either anymore. I am not shutting her out of my life, I am just no longer reaching out continuously. I think I have learned a lot about myself the past couple of years, and one of the things I've learned, is that I can live without her - more than live, and everything will be just fine.
I am thinking some fun new flats are in order, and some jeans. :) AND tax free weekend is just around the corner! YAY! Ok, I'm done being excited about going shopping.
I know I have wrote on here before in years past about my friend that is not my friend, and is sick. That is confusing yes? Well, ok, here's the deal. I used to have a best friend, and she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which sucked, but we were still fine and I was determined to be a rock for her. Then she got pregnant, had a baby, pushed herself too far, and pushed everyone away...including me. I stuck it out, knowing that one day my friend would be back...but here it is almost 6 years later...and she's still not back. Because I need closure, and maybe I have this affinity to get the last word in? I don't know...anyhow, I emailed her. She never has time enough to actually talk to me on the phone anymore, and I just wanted to get something off my chest and then move on. It's almost as if I needed physical closure, to be able to actually see the words to let go. I have talked about letting go...I have screamed and cried and been angry, but I have never actually done it. I guess part of me wanted her to tell me she wanted to be my friend again, and the majority of myself didn't want to lose what we used to have.
But somehow I have grown up in the past couple of years. I have gotten married, I have had a baby, I have come face to face with my shortcomings and mistakes, and admitted I wasn't big enough to take them on. I feel like I'm different, and I don't need her anymore. That may sound petty, but I used to need her. She was like a security blanket for me, and I held on to that and depended on it way too much.
So anyhow, I emailed her, and YES I'm going to post the whole email here...incase you were wondering. I included with it an email she wrote me, that I had saved. That email she wrote me was years ago, when she was at the bottom of the bottom. She hurt my feelings, she pushed me away, she called me shitty pretty much. I included it so she could remember what we had been through together, and so she knew when I felt like our relationship was forever changed. The message of the email I wrote was 'So you remember, and good luck':
You wrote me this email when you were sick years ago - I still feel like our friendship isn't where it was and you have never gone back to being my friend (this was when hope was a little over a year old) - I don't know if will ever be. The more I think about it - the more I feel like I walked away from our friendship, because I was tired of being hurt. Not given up, just shut it out for a while. You aren't my friend. Not like you used to be. You aren't the person I want to tell everything to anymore, you're not the person who tells me everything. You aren't the person that knows me best - if you even know me at all anymore. I know your life is always full of drama, and you always have some excuse for not talking to me - just know I don't care to hear the excuses anymore, I want action. Perhaps one day when you have time for me, we can be friends like we were before - but if not, it's ok. I don't even know why I'm bothering to tell you anything - it never seems to change anything anyhow - AND to be completely honest, I don't know if I care if it does or not. Good luck with your family and your new baby on the way. Wishing you health and happiness.
Ok, so rereading that, maybe it isn't as much 'closure' as I thought, but I felt it. Like I was finally closing that chapter in my life. Like it didn't matter if she called me back today or in a week, or ever at all. Writing that email was cathartic for me, and it helped me say goodbye, I am not bitter that our friendship didn't work out - I understand people can grow apart and go different ways, good luck. Do you think I conveyed that?
Regardless, I feel that I am in a better place, and if she called me tomorrow, I would talk to her...but it wouldn't be like it used to be, and I wouldn't expect that from her either anymore. I am not shutting her out of my life, I am just no longer reaching out continuously. I think I have learned a lot about myself the past couple of years, and one of the things I've learned, is that I can live without her - more than live, and everything will be just fine.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Itching For Something New
I have been feeling a little restless in my everyday life here lately. Not exactly sure why, because heaven knows I have enough to do in a day to keep myself occupied. I mean, I know tons of people have it worse off than me and have more things to do than myself, and I have tons to be grateful for...but I do have a lot to do:
My daily life:
1. Get up - and OMG I'm SOOOOOOOO bad at this one, I always press snooze like five million times before I actually sit up.
2. Get Ready - not the best at this one either, but fashion and general making myself look put together has never been a strong suit - it was much easier when I was in high school, and didn't have to look like an adult!
3. Get Dylan's cup - this one is EXTREMELY important, as first thing in the morning he wants a drink in a big way, and if you fail to do this step, life will not be pleasant until it is rectified - amazing how my child has trained me so well.
4. Get Dylan's Clothes ready - pretty self explanatory, but I will say he has a much easier selection to put together.
5. Get the diaper - cause lets face it, dirty diapers are a reality.
6. Get the D! - love this part, because he gives me a kiss and then proceeds to take a drink of the cup he has trained me to fetch for him.
7. Get him dressed - Yes, he is still holding his cup at this point :).
8. Gather all my crap and leave - this crap consists of whatever I brought home to work on the night before, occasionally diapers/wipes/extra clothes/swim suit for Dylan for his daycare, my purse, my phone - this is EXTREMELY important, my lunch bag, and of course Dylan - did I mention that he has trained me well?
9. Drive to Dylan's school - uneventful :)
10. Drop him off - on a side note he never says bye to me, and this is bothersome.
11. Drive to the Gas Station - and there I proceed to buy the largest Diet Coke I can possibly find, and yes I do this every morning.
12. Drive to work - this is boring, but my sister in law has been nice enough to talk to me on the way to make it not so boring :)
13. Work - while this isn't generally boring, it is never the same, and thus hard to create a synopsis for :).
14. Drive home - again talking to people and accomplishing the odds and ends calls you have to make in your life, because they don't seem to call you.
15. Pick up Dylan - this is mostly fun, but sometimes Dylan is incredibly whiny. He is incredibly happy to see me :).
16. Give D a snack - have I mentioned that I am well trained?
17. Gather my crap and go upstairs - see aforementioned crap for the list.
18. Find Dinner - I say find, because sometimes this doesn't include actually cooking.
19. Eat
20. Give D a bath - he enjoys this, and it gives me a little time to relax :)
21. Play with D a bit - this includes playing with cars, or reading books, or any number of things :).
21a. Tim puts D to bed - I put this in here just in case you wonder why D isn't sleeping! I never put him in the bed, I can't handle the crying.
22. Attempt to do some cleaning - this can include, but hasn't yet, the massive pile of both clean and dirty clothes that I have yet to address, or the kitchen or whatever.
23. Relax! - watching tv, reading, farmville, playing random card/domino games with Tim :)...oooh and maybe a glass of wine :D. (I found this really great one I like, and that is exciting to me and makes me feel fancy...just saying).
24. Shower - yes I do get clean at least once a day :).
25. Read - I love to read...and I do so every night!
26. Sleep - yay! And this is usually between 11:30 and 12:00am.
WHEW! I have no idea why I felt the need to list my day for you all, but I did, and it was a lot of work so I'm not deleting it, feel free to bypass the list all together.
I think I want a new fashion style, or hair style or something. I decided that I am looking boring lately. And maybe that stems from having a routine, I am SO not used to having one of those. I feel the need to dye my hair pink or purple or get some fun and funky new clothes. The problem with this is - I have no idea what! Ok maybe there is two problems, the second is I am not that great with the whole fashion/makeup/hairstyle thing (see 2 on the list).
What do you think about THIS hairstyle? Obviously this is not pink or purple or anything overly funky, but it is maybe something I can do at home. THIS is totally fun! Isn't it? Maybe with just pink and purple...:). And I'm thinking some new fun flats :), I can totally buy shoes! THESE might be on the agenda!
All this nonsensical ramblings just to say - I am not used to having a routine, and after years of hoping, wishing and praying for one, I have a home - a routine - a 'normal' life, and I feel bitter that I am feeling the need for some kind of makeover. I mean, I have wanted this for a long time! I am upset at myself for wanting more, because my dream of being in one place is now a reality. But maybe I'm being too hard on myself? I was a gypsy for a long time, and it's hard to go from one extreme to another. Maybe just a little personal change, instead of physical location change...:) I think I can handle that!
My daily life:
1. Get up - and OMG I'm SOOOOOOOO bad at this one, I always press snooze like five million times before I actually sit up.
2. Get Ready - not the best at this one either, but fashion and general making myself look put together has never been a strong suit - it was much easier when I was in high school, and didn't have to look like an adult!
3. Get Dylan's cup - this one is EXTREMELY important, as first thing in the morning he wants a drink in a big way, and if you fail to do this step, life will not be pleasant until it is rectified - amazing how my child has trained me so well.
4. Get Dylan's Clothes ready - pretty self explanatory, but I will say he has a much easier selection to put together.
5. Get the diaper - cause lets face it, dirty diapers are a reality.
6. Get the D! - love this part, because he gives me a kiss and then proceeds to take a drink of the cup he has trained me to fetch for him.
7. Get him dressed - Yes, he is still holding his cup at this point :).
8. Gather all my crap and leave - this crap consists of whatever I brought home to work on the night before, occasionally diapers/wipes/extra clothes/swim suit for Dylan for his daycare, my purse, my phone - this is EXTREMELY important, my lunch bag, and of course Dylan - did I mention that he has trained me well?
9. Drive to Dylan's school - uneventful :)
10. Drop him off - on a side note he never says bye to me, and this is bothersome.
11. Drive to the Gas Station - and there I proceed to buy the largest Diet Coke I can possibly find, and yes I do this every morning.
12. Drive to work - this is boring, but my sister in law has been nice enough to talk to me on the way to make it not so boring :)
13. Work - while this isn't generally boring, it is never the same, and thus hard to create a synopsis for :).
14. Drive home - again talking to people and accomplishing the odds and ends calls you have to make in your life, because they don't seem to call you.
15. Pick up Dylan - this is mostly fun, but sometimes Dylan is incredibly whiny. He is incredibly happy to see me :).
16. Give D a snack - have I mentioned that I am well trained?
17. Gather my crap and go upstairs - see aforementioned crap for the list.
18. Find Dinner - I say find, because sometimes this doesn't include actually cooking.
19. Eat
20. Give D a bath - he enjoys this, and it gives me a little time to relax :)
21. Play with D a bit - this includes playing with cars, or reading books, or any number of things :).
21a. Tim puts D to bed - I put this in here just in case you wonder why D isn't sleeping! I never put him in the bed, I can't handle the crying.
22. Attempt to do some cleaning - this can include, but hasn't yet, the massive pile of both clean and dirty clothes that I have yet to address, or the kitchen or whatever.
23. Relax! - watching tv, reading, farmville, playing random card/domino games with Tim :)...oooh and maybe a glass of wine :D. (I found this really great one I like, and that is exciting to me and makes me feel fancy...just saying).
24. Shower - yes I do get clean at least once a day :).
25. Read - I love to read...and I do so every night!
26. Sleep - yay! And this is usually between 11:30 and 12:00am.
WHEW! I have no idea why I felt the need to list my day for you all, but I did, and it was a lot of work so I'm not deleting it, feel free to bypass the list all together.
I think I want a new fashion style, or hair style or something. I decided that I am looking boring lately. And maybe that stems from having a routine, I am SO not used to having one of those. I feel the need to dye my hair pink or purple or get some fun and funky new clothes. The problem with this is - I have no idea what! Ok maybe there is two problems, the second is I am not that great with the whole fashion/makeup/hairstyle thing (see 2 on the list).
What do you think about THIS hairstyle? Obviously this is not pink or purple or anything overly funky, but it is maybe something I can do at home. THIS is totally fun! Isn't it? Maybe with just pink and purple...:). And I'm thinking some new fun flats :), I can totally buy shoes! THESE might be on the agenda!
All this nonsensical ramblings just to say - I am not used to having a routine, and after years of hoping, wishing and praying for one, I have a home - a routine - a 'normal' life, and I feel bitter that I am feeling the need for some kind of makeover. I mean, I have wanted this for a long time! I am upset at myself for wanting more, because my dream of being in one place is now a reality. But maybe I'm being too hard on myself? I was a gypsy for a long time, and it's hard to go from one extreme to another. Maybe just a little personal change, instead of physical location change...:) I think I can handle that!
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Parties-Work-Parties and Whatever Other Randomness I can Come up with
So my friend had what looked like a terrific party for her son last weekend, and it has inspired me to start thinking about Dylan's birthday party! But I am uninspired....I have NO idea what to do for a kid that is turning two while we are living in an apartment. Everything that you can go to like the jump houses or chuckeecheese either seem too old, too expensive, or too generic.
I could have a pool party at our apartment pool...but is the end of September a good time to be swimming? Alas I have no idea...I will continue to brainstorm - and am welcoming all ideas on this front.
I am playing catch up today at work - funny isn't it? I am blogging instead of catching up! Oh well, it has waited this long it can wait a few more minutes. Anyhow, during my mundane catching up at work thing I have been thinking about life. Don't worry, I am not going to get philisophical - just thinking about boring things like what to serve for dinner, and the fact that I sold my stock yesterday and wonder when that check will come in, and that diapers are so freaking expensive - and perhaps I should invest in one of those companies, and when are we going to get Tim's car out of the shop - because I am tired of paying for a rental. AND, I have been throwing royal pity parties for myself and really need to stop that.
Yes, I have been acting like I am 2. I get all bent out of shape for NO apparent reason - or even if I have a reason, I am overreacting. I am starting to get on my own nerves. So, I am vowing on my blog, with my vast audience of 1 or 2 people as a witness, to try harder to not get so pissy - I'll keep you posted.
So, I have also been thinking about a new car! We are going to consolidate to one vehicle instead of two and trade in both of our cars for one car. Any ideas? My husband wants to get this car, and I don't know how I feel about it. This is going to be MY car not his! Maybe I'm just being pissy again. Anyone else have any ideas? Something gas friendly prefered!
I think I succeeded in all over the map on this one :) I hope everyone else followed my disconnected thought process!
I could have a pool party at our apartment pool...but is the end of September a good time to be swimming? Alas I have no idea...I will continue to brainstorm - and am welcoming all ideas on this front.
I am playing catch up today at work - funny isn't it? I am blogging instead of catching up! Oh well, it has waited this long it can wait a few more minutes. Anyhow, during my mundane catching up at work thing I have been thinking about life. Don't worry, I am not going to get philisophical - just thinking about boring things like what to serve for dinner, and the fact that I sold my stock yesterday and wonder when that check will come in, and that diapers are so freaking expensive - and perhaps I should invest in one of those companies, and when are we going to get Tim's car out of the shop - because I am tired of paying for a rental. AND, I have been throwing royal pity parties for myself and really need to stop that.
Yes, I have been acting like I am 2. I get all bent out of shape for NO apparent reason - or even if I have a reason, I am overreacting. I am starting to get on my own nerves. So, I am vowing on my blog, with my vast audience of 1 or 2 people as a witness, to try harder to not get so pissy - I'll keep you posted.
So, I have also been thinking about a new car! We are going to consolidate to one vehicle instead of two and trade in both of our cars for one car. Any ideas? My husband wants to get this car, and I don't know how I feel about it. This is going to be MY car not his! Maybe I'm just being pissy again. Anyone else have any ideas? Something gas friendly prefered!
I think I succeeded in all over the map on this one :) I hope everyone else followed my disconnected thought process!
Monday, July 25, 2011
Finally Able to Breathe!
So I made the call.
This weekend I met with my sister and her husband, who is also an accountant, and went over our bills/budget. It was painful and invasive, but it needed to be done. We needed some help! We figured out that my Devon job was not even available for consideration given the money we are obligated to every month right now. So that made the decision clear - I have to stay where I am. I am a bit sad about it, but mostly just fine. It would have been nice working for an awesome company like Devon - but it's a whole lot nicer to have food and gas for the cars.
This morning I called Devon to tell them that I couldn't come work for them. The lady, as everyone I have ever talked to there has been, was incredibly nice and said that I need to make the decision that's best for my family, and she understands it is just business. I feel better already!
This weekend I met with my sister and her husband, who is also an accountant, and went over our bills/budget. It was painful and invasive, but it needed to be done. We needed some help! We figured out that my Devon job was not even available for consideration given the money we are obligated to every month right now. So that made the decision clear - I have to stay where I am. I am a bit sad about it, but mostly just fine. It would have been nice working for an awesome company like Devon - but it's a whole lot nicer to have food and gas for the cars.
This morning I called Devon to tell them that I couldn't come work for them. The lady, as everyone I have ever talked to there has been, was incredibly nice and said that I need to make the decision that's best for my family, and she understands it is just business. I feel better already!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
The Job Pull
So about 4 months ago I was frantically trying to get a job - because the one I was offered was turned down. Now I'm trying to figure out how to set boundaries for myself in my current job, and how to turn down an offer from an incredible company, AND send out resumes to more companies because apparently I'm pretty popular at the moment.
Amazing how much time can change your situation.
I don't know how to tell the amazing company that I'm going to pass on their offer - I don't even know if that is the best decision! I have weighed the pros and cons, and I don't know what the 'right' answer is. But I think I know what the 'right now' answer is...but uncertainty is heavy! How you make decisions like that without your head exploding is beyond me - and suggestions are more than welcome!
So now, I am awaiting my offer from the 'big dog' because who doesn't want to work for a big dog in their field? I mean it would like working for a mom & pop computer shop, and Apple gives you a call and says they want you! Fabulous - I hope I have that feeling one day! So I'm waiting, and trying to figure out how to break it off with a company...that part kind of sucks.
Amazing how much time can change your situation.
I don't know how to tell the amazing company that I'm going to pass on their offer - I don't even know if that is the best decision! I have weighed the pros and cons, and I don't know what the 'right' answer is. But I think I know what the 'right now' answer is...but uncertainty is heavy! How you make decisions like that without your head exploding is beyond me - and suggestions are more than welcome!
So now, I am awaiting my offer from the 'big dog' because who doesn't want to work for a big dog in their field? I mean it would like working for a mom & pop computer shop, and Apple gives you a call and says they want you! Fabulous - I hope I have that feeling one day! So I'm waiting, and trying to figure out how to break it off with a company...that part kind of sucks.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
I
I've seen this on a few other blogs before, and thought I'd try it too...
I am....restless, needy, loved, cherished
I have....a life full of endless possibilities, and a fabulous husband, son and apartment too
I want....security
I fear....I will never find a place I fit outside my home and family.
I would....love to make my money problems cease to exist
I don't....exercise like I should
I did....quit my job, and it felt pretty good.
I didn't....have a plan on how life was going to work after the job was no more.
I will....go on a vacation with just me and my husband - take our honeymoon.
I won't....do the dishes unless I absolutely have to
I can....do artistic things - I'm pretty good at flower arrangements and all things crafty, surprisingly.
I can't....become bogged down by the pressures and stresses in life
I could....go for a nice drink with good friends.
I couldn't....be apart from my family, so we made the decision for us to not travel anymore.
I always....carry my cell phone - even if it is dead.
I never....have been to Washington DC, but I have always wanted to go!
I hate....when people won't let me do the job I was hired for.
I believe....that boredom is a state of mind.
I imagine....all the time, I love to let my mind wonder.
I regret....not getting married in a church, and having pictures taken, and a lovely honeymoon - but only part of me, the other part wonders why people normally spend so much on one day and that part of me also wonders if I should have experienced it for myself.
I speak....often, but sometimes I still feel unheard.
I sing....not as often as I used to, and I miss it.
I write....in my brain a lot, but it rarely makes it onto something for others to see.
I enjoy....spending time with my mom - the older I get the more I love doing it.
I eat....the outside of a kit kat bar first
I drink....tea - I don't know why, but I love it.
I like....sparkly flats and my favorite blue jeans, and playing silly games on the computer.
I wish....we would win the lottery and never have to worry about money and my family would be taken care of forever.
I hope....and I am learning how to build my hope on Jesus and His salvation - it has been a long road for me.
I remember....life before Dylan, and Life after
I enjoy....sleeping,reading, musicals, shopping, and spending time with Tim & D
I miss....sleeping in!
I feel....lucky :).
I work....a lot, but I am grateful because it is not fun to not have a job
I dream....of owning a house and having another child
I see....everything moving so fast.
I hear....my son crying at night these days - I think he's having nightmares :(
I know....that my life has a Divine compass, and all I need to do is follow it.
I love....good friends, hot chocolate, diet coke, shopping, going to a musical, enjoying movies with my husband and playing with my son
I am....an oxymoron, complicated, simple, ever evolving.
I am....restless, needy, loved, cherished
I have....a life full of endless possibilities, and a fabulous husband, son and apartment too
I want....security
I fear....I will never find a place I fit outside my home and family.
I would....love to make my money problems cease to exist
I don't....exercise like I should
I did....quit my job, and it felt pretty good.
I didn't....have a plan on how life was going to work after the job was no more.
I will....go on a vacation with just me and my husband - take our honeymoon.
I won't....do the dishes unless I absolutely have to
I can....do artistic things - I'm pretty good at flower arrangements and all things crafty, surprisingly.
I can't....become bogged down by the pressures and stresses in life
I could....go for a nice drink with good friends.
I couldn't....be apart from my family, so we made the decision for us to not travel anymore.
I always....carry my cell phone - even if it is dead.
I never....have been to Washington DC, but I have always wanted to go!
I hate....when people won't let me do the job I was hired for.
I believe....that boredom is a state of mind.
I imagine....all the time, I love to let my mind wonder.
I regret....not getting married in a church, and having pictures taken, and a lovely honeymoon - but only part of me, the other part wonders why people normally spend so much on one day and that part of me also wonders if I should have experienced it for myself.
I speak....often, but sometimes I still feel unheard.
I sing....not as often as I used to, and I miss it.
I write....in my brain a lot, but it rarely makes it onto something for others to see.
I enjoy....spending time with my mom - the older I get the more I love doing it.
I eat....the outside of a kit kat bar first
I drink....tea - I don't know why, but I love it.
I like....sparkly flats and my favorite blue jeans, and playing silly games on the computer.
I wish....we would win the lottery and never have to worry about money and my family would be taken care of forever.
I hope....and I am learning how to build my hope on Jesus and His salvation - it has been a long road for me.
I remember....life before Dylan, and Life after
I enjoy....sleeping,reading, musicals, shopping, and spending time with Tim & D
I miss....sleeping in!
I feel....lucky :).
I work....a lot, but I am grateful because it is not fun to not have a job
I dream....of owning a house and having another child
I see....everything moving so fast.
I hear....my son crying at night these days - I think he's having nightmares :(
I know....that my life has a Divine compass, and all I need to do is follow it.
I love....good friends, hot chocolate, diet coke, shopping, going to a musical, enjoying movies with my husband and playing with my son
I am....an oxymoron, complicated, simple, ever evolving.
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