Thursday, July 9, 2009

Kidney Stones, Arena Matches and Sleep

So I have been having a horrendous time sleeping lately. Have I mentioned that being pregnant is not the most pleasant feeling in the world? Don't get me wrong, I'm excited, adn I'm sure that it's all more than worth it when it comes time to seeing your child for the first time...but whoever said that being pregnant is 'the greatest time in your life' is lying to you. It's uncomfortable and makes you incredibly sleepy..not just cause you have another life depending on yours...but because you get virtually no sleep after about month 5. I sleep...and I'm sleepy...but I only get to sleep 4 hours at a time...and let me tell you, that it SUCKS. I really had no idea how much it does affect someone not to have more than 4 hours of sleep at one time.
I could go on forever about sleep, and the lack of it I'm getting lately...but I'll move on :). I got a call from my sister about 7:30pm yesterday afternoon. She calls and tells me my mom is in the emergency room in Rhode Island. Not many ppl know this, but about 4 years ago I got a similar call about my father in Tulsa and it turned out to be a pretty traumatic experience. Anyhow, I automatically became pretty paranoid about the whole thing. I have a problem with getting overly stressed out lately, and I don't know if its just something I'm going through, or it's a pregnancy hormone thing. ANYHOW, I was instantly stressed and thinking the worst. After several phone calls and hours and hours of waiting (until 4:30am to be exact) I found out that my mom had a kidney stone, and that is why she had so much overwhelming pain. What a relief! I'm again greatful that I'm not alone in this world, and I have Divine protection and Someone great watching over me and mine.
Moving on to my moodiness. Tim deserves a reward for dealing with me. I can't believe how moody I am! Doing arena matches...ARENA MATCHES, I lose my cool and get all bent out of shape or cry uncontrolably cause I make a mistake. It's ridiculous. I'm glad I have tim too :) He's wonderful, adn he truly has been more than understanding and helpful. I'm so glad I have him...cause i can be truly awful sometimes. I hope that one day I can be more of myself again, and he gets back to the person who he loves!