Me

I've long done stupid surveys and taken tests that are supposed to reflect my personality and divulge who I am to me. I find these things amusing for the most part, and sometimes enlightening and eerily correct. I have long coasted on my brain and my thought processes. I have escaped answers by giving an overview without divulging the true answer that lies within me sometimes because I don't want to answer the question but more often than not to see if anyone else notices the lack of substance I've provided them with. Sadly, most people don't realize this. I am not trying to sound concieted, because I really don't think I know everything, but I tend to watch and assess more than most people. I'm an observer by nature and can usually read people really well. This is both a gift and a curse.
Sometimes I feel it's a curse because I feel as though no one truly knows me. I could expound on the lonliness with melodramatic flair, but it's not really lonliness...it's more of aloneness. Don't get me wrong, I believe this is entirely my fault. But being alone with your thoughts and the incessance of them can be a bit overwhelming, especially for me. I think too much. Very simply put...but sometimes simplicity is the best way to explain things. My thoughts run ceaslessly one overlapping the next, and I just jump from one to the next often appearing very random to those on the outside of my brain. :) But random works for me, so I'm ok with it. So even in the curse, though filled with longing at times for someone to know me in my entirety, I am ok and wouldn't change the way I am for anything.
On the flip side thinking too much has lots of advantages. My ability to think about ideas that would never be approved by normal society and the what ifs and what could bes that lie in everything is truly entertaining. I enjoy being able to think about things that most people would consider inappropriate simply because I can. I also enjoy thinking about situations from every possible angle...it appeals to my nature to want to think thoroughly through every situation.
Thinking back on some of these tests I have taken, I'll leave you with one of my results...
You Are a Seeker Soul You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

New York or Bust!

Ok, I'm brimming with excitement this morning...which is unusual because it's MORNING. But I believe I have cause to be brimming, not that I ever need cause to be excited...and infact I generally have no specific reason, I just am.........anyhow, to the point. My mother and I have been trying to have a vacation with just the two of us for several years now, but do to many circumstances outside our control. My father was put in the hospital on our last big planned outing in which we planned to vacation in Europe for a couple of weeks. And ever since then things just haven't quite fallen into place to make it happen...until now.

I recently decided that regardless of what I seem to have planned or where I am in my life, spending time with my mother in this way is important to me and it's important to her, so I bit the bullet and planned a vacation. All this to say, I truly want to go on vacation with her, it's just sometimes hard for me to commit to that much money coming out of my pocket.

Now to the fun part..telling you about my vacation! We got together and decided a trip to New York was the way to go. I've always wanted to go as has she, and it's an experience we'd like to share with each other. We have no real set plans for what we're going to do beyond the Broadway show tickets I had to preorder and the hotel and plane reservations I made. So here's what we got so far: going to stay in a hotel just off Time Square, near the hubbub of New York City life according to the information blurb about the hotel, and we're going to see Hairspray and Wicked on Broadway.

I must admit, the Broadway shows are what I'm truly excited about! Not that New York in and of itself is not exciting for me, but musicals have always been something magical for me. All the music, and dancing, and singing combined with colorful sets always give me a sense of wonder and I get lost in it all. Besides the shows, we are just going to be big tourists and do all the things that make us look like we're not from New York. I can hardly wait!