Birth of the Rocker Chick

So I got my hair done! I was super excited/semi nervous about the whole thing. I took pictures with me (I was proud of myself for being prepared) and it turned out well I think. I had a lady at church tell me yesterday 'Wow, I have always wanted to do something like that, but it never seems like the right time - so I will let my inner rock chick live vicariously through you!" She also asked me if I had piercings and tattoos...it was an interesting conversation to have on the church lawn, and it was quite shocking to know a lady (probably mid to upper 30s) who is always so impeccably dressed with five million kids feels the want (but not the bravado) to let her inner rocker chick out. By the way, incase you are wondering, I do have tattoos (4) but only one piercing that needed to be administered at the tattoo parlor (tragus) :D. As such, I have dubbed this transformation "Birth of the Rocker Chick". Now I'm going to do pictures! Yay!
This is me on the day I received my hair color/cut with the salon styling straight hair that magically stays that way even if it is humid as all get out.

Above is an overhead view of my color :D
Below is a side angle view of my hair - you can also see the purple in the back and not just the pink!

Here is my whole head - with me doing my hair (not as good as the salon, but I am trying)

And here is a casserole I made last night that was yummy! :D Just to change things up!

One last pic of my whole head with my lovely office backdrop!

I guess I could have smiled - but it is super hard to take a picture of yourself - have you noticed? Anywho, in continuation of my Rocker Chickness I think next on the agenda is a tattoo!
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The Random List

So my friend Jenn wrote this fabulous post about random revealing things about herself...and it was so much fun to read I thought I'd give it a try - by the by, her blog is excellent and I recommend reading it she seems to find a place to connect with you no matter where you are in life :). And so my List begins!

I love Diet Coke, but I feel really weird ordering a Quarter Pounder and a large Diet Coke...I feel the need to explain no I am not on a diet - obviously, I just enjoy Diet Coke!

I love to bake! But I hate to do dishes - and I feel the need to bake in a kitchen that is spotless when I start...so baking is a long process for me.

I love to write - lists or whatever, but only in blue or purple ink. It just looks prettier, and only ball point please!

I enjoy doing 10 key things. It is fun :)

Coloring is one of my all time favorite past times - I love the way crayons smell.

I very much want to sing - and am hurt when my father doesn't want to give me constructive criticism that I can work with.

My house is an absolute disaster area - all the time. This is why it takes me so long to bake.

Whenever I have some one come over to clean the house (I am paying them, mind you) I clean before they get there so I don't appear to be an absolute slob.

My car is in a similar state as my house - and I despise it, but can never seem to find the time to get it cleaned up!

I am obsessed with surveys that tell you your personality type, or pretend to dissect the way you think. I suppose I am obsessed with analyzing myself?

I love the way bible pages sound when they are being flipped. I suppose it doesn't have to be a bible...just the really thin pages.

I can eat a whole jar of Tostitos Spinach Artichoke dip in a few settings by myself. I prefer to eat this than any number of other things.

The Superfluous Hair Post

So I have been thinking about my hair a bit lately. I know it's not as awe inspiring or thought evoking as contemplating the universe or the meaning of life...but that's what I have been doing. I REALLY am craving something new in my life and I think a new hair do will fit the bill just right. Normally I would be about to move somewhere new or start a new job - but I am a homebody now, and so hair is where it's at for me at the moment.
So I don't know how most people go about having a new hair style. For me it's a lot of looking and looking and looking, and then I find like 15 things I like, so I end up going to the hair salon and tell them to do just whatever or try to combine these totally off the wall things that don't go. There are alot of articles out there about face shape and haircuts that best go with whatever shape. I apparently have an oval face. I measured it with a booklet from the fire extinguisher training. In my office. I will wait while you have the mental image of me holding up a white folded booklet in front of my face both length wise and width wise. This took several times of trying, by the way, and I have no idea if anyone was watching - nor do I particularly care. This was all in the name of science and my new do! So I found a hair cut I like. Here it is. What do you think? I am also doing a color. I am contemplating something like THIS. Maybe a color other than purple - although I love the idea of it! So now I am getting excited. I will post pictures after completion :D. And maybe, just maybe I will go into the hair salon with a plan that is actually valid.

Big ideas

So I have a big idea. I haven't exactly nailed down all the details yet, and I have no idea how long it will take to come to fruition. I want to help people. I want to start a charity that will help people that can't get a leg up. I don't want to give them money, I don't want to feed the chaos, I want to help them get off the ground and show them how to walk on their own.
I don't quite understand why I feel like I need to do this - but I do. The idea came to me during my million dollar game adventure with Tim. For those who do not know what this is - well you just aren't imaginative enough :). Just kidding. It's just basically outlining what you would do if you suddenly came into a bunch of money. I like to play it. It feels like a release. I love the land of make believe - it's probably why I love to read. Anyhow, I had this idea and as soon as I have a concrete what I'm going to do and how etc I'll fill everyone in :).
I am excited about it. I have no idea how to do it. But I'm excited :)

Am I Really That Random? Yes I guess I am

I've long held on to the motto that I am random, and it's something that if you do indeed want to be my friend, you will just have to get over. I have been contemplating this lately - because I really don't think I am that random. I know everyone (or most everyone) else thinks so - I have been told it often enough in my life, but I have never felt like the things that come out of my mouth are really that random, I have just never really taken the time to explain my jump from point A to B. Often times it has a very logical line.
I will admit that my thought processes are quirky and perhaps something that reminds me of something will not ring the same reminder in someone else's mind. :)
Anyhow, as I have been contemplating all my randomness (I'm good at contemplating - maybe not at finding solutions, but contemplating yes :)I decided that it doesn't matter if other people have a hard time following my pattern of speaking or consider it random...I don't have a problem with it.
I guess I am going to demonstrate some of my characterized randomness from others now as I move to a widely different subject.
My husband's sister went off on me on facebook. On FACEBOOK. While I do not have a problem with people telling me where they ate or their opinions on things on the social network, I feel that telling people off in public that can be archived and read later is outside the scope of the site's purpose, and overall just out of line. She is angry with me for not communicating with her enough and for sending pics to other people and not her. Pretty much that's the long and short of it, or at least what I gathered from the spew that was coming from her keyboard. She called me names, she defamed my character, she was rude. I tried my best to be nice, and understanding etc even though all I really wanted to do was reach through my computer screen and slap her! I don't need this drama, I don't need that drama. Whatever drama you have, I'm not in the market to buy.

How - Letting Go

So my previous post helped me a lot more than I thought it would. It helped for me to verbalize what I was internalizing for weeks. It leads me to wonder what other things I have been hanging on to and how if I just said it outloud (or via the blogging hemisphere) perhaps I would feel freed.
I have long struggled with the casting your burdens down for God to carry. Perhaps it's because it's such a physical image, and obviously I can not physically take off the burden of money from my back and hand it over. I have struggled with it because I quite frankly didn't know how.
People often give you these flowery blurbs 'Let go and let God' etc, but does anyone actually sit down and tell you HOW. How do I let go? How do I cast all my cares upon Him?
Anyhow, all this to say somehow the physical transference of thoughts to a page helps me do just this. Lay it down, cast it away, let go. I need the physical to do the mental/heart transfer. I don't know if I'm alone in this, but I'm imagining not.
A few years ago I figured out I needed this physical transfer. I like lists, what can I say? So I started writing letters to God. It helped me so much to just say - here you go, I have written about it now I don't have to worry about it anymore. I still struggle with the 'letting go and letting God' but writing has become such a wonderful outlet for me. I know I don't write here as much as I should. But even typing out some lines on here makes me feel a little lighter. :)

Exodus 14:14 - this has become my mantra. It will be until I can completely let it take over my world. :)

Christmas is Nearly HERE!

I simply cannot believe Christmas is on Sunday. Where has the year gone? Where will next year go? Will I have enough time to crank out some pumpkin bread? Just a few reflections about this year, and because I am lazy and time has gotten away from me I have not sent out any kind of Christmas card this year - so consider this my Christmas newsletter from my family to you :).
This year a lot has happened (so cliche...but probably true most of the time)! Our little family took a big step out on faith and moved to Katy, TX from, well from wherever the job was before that - pretty much all over to one place :).
Tim is going to school to be an automotive technician and is loving it! He is doing well in school, and has passed 3 of his ASE certification tests already! I am immensely proud of the work he has put in and his success thus far in school, and he is excited to realize his goal of becoming a technician. Next year he plans on passing 6 more certification exams and becoming a Master Tech after his experience requirement is met, and hopes to get a job at a dealership as an assistant to get some hands on training. He is still loving video games, hanging out with our little man and working on Mia (his project car).
Jessica (that's me!) has made a change in career and is looking forward to what the next year may bring with the company she is currently employed with. I (sorry had to change tenses the 3rd person thing was weird) am loving being able to be home every night and to have a place to be able to become involved with a community and church. I joined a small book club and am enjoying interacting and reading new and different things! (I have ALWAYS wanted to be in one of those!).
Dylan is now 2 and is enjoying his daycare. He interacts well with the little kids at the daycare and is learning his numbers and colors. He is active and a whole lot of fun! This next step for him will be potty training! (cue scary music). We shall see how we handle all of that. He loves anything with wheels and locating school buses as they are 'yewwow wow!'.
Our little family is settling into everyday life and looking forward to purchasing a house somewhere on the horizon. We actually found one we like and may be in one sooner than we think!

New Car and Other Excitingness!

This weekend was a whirlwind! Tim and I attempted to sell his truck by putting it on Auto Trader a few weeks back, and to our surprise fairly soon after we placed the ad a buyer from American Auto Brokers called us to make us an offer. The offer didn't cover the difference of what we owed on the truck, but it was SIGNIFICANTLY more than anyone else has offered us for trade. So I called up the dealership and asked about making a trade in of both of our cars we had notes on (the 2500 truck, and the RAV4) for one vehicle from them.
They got us preapproved, and it was pain free! The whole experience was totally awesome, and I would recommend them to anyone in the market for a used truck/suv/and some cars. They don't have a big car selection, but maybe you could luck out like us and get a car like THIS! Which is the car we got :) Totally wonderfully awesome, yes?
ANYHOW, then I came home and took care of D, went to church & small group on Sunday and started preparing for his party. My little boy is turning two tomorrow! We are having his party this weekend and my father in law is coming - but that is another story entirely.
I made a cupcake cake. I had read about them online and heard about them through friends, and my sister actually had one made for my other sister's birthday not too long ago, so I wanted to attempt to make one myself. Here are my results.

I am going to add some finishing touches - some more frosting and some decorations. I will update you on what it looks like later :D.
My little boy turns 2! Here is a last look at him at 1, because the next time I post pics of him, he will more than likely be 2 - cause his birthday is tomorrow in case you have forgotten during my ramblings (ok, yes I know that explanation was probably not needed, but I cannot help myself! I think I talk to stupid people too often!).

Catching up :)

A lot has happened recently! Maybe not monumental excitingness, but a lot for my family just the same.

We got our new couch - and YES it's purple :)! I got a rug too, thank you Tim for the very nice anniversary present!

I also got very pretty anniversary flowers marking the 2nd year of our marriage! Yay Tim! And we went to a VERY nice restaurant for our anniversary dinner - and it was super yummy and ritzy and fancy.

D taught Tim how to play on his bike - and he went along for a ride for extra measure

We've had some fun at McDonalds - these guys are just too cute together aren't they? <3

D has tried to convince us to join him playing in the mud - but he had a lot of fun in it by himself!

We have had fun playing outside...and BOY has it been HOT! I never thought I'd want to go back to the cold...but I'm ready for some cool at least, and so is D! Just look at those cheeks!

My mother-in-law came for a visit and surprised D by getting him the very thing he has been wanting (if an almost 2 year old can tell you such things). He sure enjoys his early birthday present :).

Our little family has had a lot of fun the past few weeks, and I'm looking forward to a busy weekend schedule ahead! Sooooo nice to be home and be able to call the place I am actually living that. We are going to try to trade in our cars for one (keep your fingers crossed!), and we are going to have D's birthday party in a few weeks, we are going to a McNeese game to see my sister, and I am trying to get more involved in the Women's ministry at church...TRYING. We shall see...in the meantime we are having lots of fun enjoying each other on a day to day basis just doing the regular excitingness stuff :).

The Day My Son Ate My Brownie

So I have had an eventful evening/morning. It all started last night. (cue flash back music and the fade into another scene).
Last night we went to dinner with my mom. She graciously picked up my son from daycare and we met her at the restaurant. Then we went home, and started our nightly rituals...(and I watched the movie 'Lemonade Mouth' on the Disney Channel...LOVED IT but I have a penchant for teeny bopper movies and the Disney Channel in general).
Then I realized I couldn't find my cell phone. This is important for several reasons: 1. This is how I wake up, 2. Anyone who knows me, KNOWS I cannot live without my phone. 3. This is how I wake up.
So, I was frantically running around trying to figure out where my phone was - and calling it incessantly. Finally someone answered. Apparently I left it at the restaurant, and had to get there in 10 min in order to retrieve it. SO...i hightailed it over to the restaurant and got it. I got home, and my son was crying - AND I had to pee, btw my husband was already sleeping at this point. So I peed, and then got my son out of his bed. And apparently pee is the reason he woke up too. Apparently he had somehow gotten his diaper off and proceeded to pee all over the bed and himself, and let's face it laying in pee would make anyone cranky. So, I woke up my husband, sponge bathed and changed my son and calmed him down. Meanwhile, my husband was changing the sheets and making the necessary whatevers to the bed - I don't know I didn't ask. So I finally got him back in bed, and it was about 11:30pm. Not too bad, right?
I thought so too! Then I made our lunches (mine and Tim's) because that is how we eat everyday and then I settled down for the night. And started reading, this is my normal routine.
Then my sister texts me, and it was traumatic, but I don't want to share it here, because it is not my story to tell. But because she was having such spotty reception, I ended up staying up until almost 3 to get a sporadic story via texts from her.
Then this morning, I woke up (late as per usual), and took a shower and did my hair and the normal getting ready things. I got Dylan up and did the same. He was in a pretty good mood, actually which was awesome because I am still so so so so tired. Anyhow, he was in a good mood, until we got in the car. Apparently, he is all about my lunch box. He knows I bring food in it, and today he was hungry. So I had to go through everything in my lunch box and he finally settled on my brownie. So I gave it to him, and before you get all excited it was a Fiber One 90 calorie brownie, and let's face it - doughnuts are SO much worse. Then I promptly proceeded to start sneezing my head off. I do not think this is at all in relation to giving D the brownie, but it is an interesting coincidence! And I have been sneezing my head off ever since! It is now almost noon, and if my sneezing fits subside, maybe I'll have a chance to miss my brownie, but probably not - now more than anything I just want a nap!

The Purple Couch and Other Randomness

So last week, I think it was last week, I went on and on and on about how much I love THIS couch. So this past Sunday, my husband and I and our almost 2 year old son went to the Ashley Furniture Store in search of the couch. But they didn't have it there. I was majorly deflated by this news.
Did I mention I took my almost 2 year old son with us? Perhaps I should let you know what that was like. It was like running all over the store trying to get him to stop running all over the store, but he thought it was a hilarious game, and did not want to stand still, and WOULD not tolerate being held to the point if you picked him up he would scream bloody murder. Yes, it was lovely, thanks for asking. ANYHOW, I was disappointed that they didn't have my couch, and my husband talked me into walking around and trying to find something else. So we did, and he loved this red couch, and so I agreed and he went to purchase it. I walked outside with my screaming child to spare the customers and employees of Ashley Furniture from having to experience the noise, and to spare myself some embarrassment. Oh who am I kidding? My embarrassment meter is out the door.
THEN, I started having second thoughts. :) So I did what any woman would do who had changed their mind, I texted my husband who was in the store and said : "Me and D are outside, can we get the purple couch instead?" My husband is great, he just said..."Really? LOL, ok" Then the deal was done, and I got the purple couch I have wanted since I laid eyes on it...AND it will be here the 23rd :D. I just hope I love it as much in person!

Couches & Stars

So, incase you haven't noticed...I like stars. As in the shape...I'm not so much into the actual thing in the sky defined as :A fixed luminous point in the night sky that is a large, remote incandescent body like the sun. Just so you know what I'm talking about.
I need to redecorate Dylan's room. At the moment it's a conglomeration of things that I had in my old room when I owned that house in Chickasha. It looks half done. So there are western style stars on one wall of his room, and I think he needs more or something different up there. I don't know if he's going to be a western kind of guy. Perhaps I can just find other stars that aren't so westerny to put sporadically in the mix to help change it up. I also want to find his name that I painted right after he was born, it was cute :) and he needs more wall decor.
Also, I want a couch. Like a lot. Its not just that I want a place to sit while I"m watching TV, it's also that I want something to take up space in the middle of my living room so my husband and son are less inclined to dump crap all over the empty space. Good motivation yes? I don't even know if that will help...sadly enough.
So I have been perusing couches, and for some reason I totally love THIS one. I also think THIS one looks awesomely comfortable. Perhaps sometime this weekend I will be able to convince my hubby to go couch shopping with me! :)

Looking Back - to Now

My mom came across some old family photos of us, and it was cool to think back on that time and look forward to where we are now. I've been thinking about it a lot the past couple of days :).
Lets take a look, shall we? I will recap in the condensed version :).
My sister Jarryn: Now she is a Junior in college, majoring in physical training or some such medical thing. She got a scholarship to McNeese University in Lake Charles, LA to be a trainer for their sports program. In the family photo she is probably 3ish, a lot has happened in her life since then...now she's 20. She loves family, and friends, and going to the movies, the color green, and her sorority - and of course training.

My sister Joelle: She is now working for the Houston Rockets, and has been married almost 2 years. In the picture she was about 8. Since then, she's graduated from High School, and U of H for college, she's gotten married and started her profession as a wonderful member of the sales team for the Rockets. She actually won a rookie award for the most sales in the NBA last year! She loves traveling, being active, swimming and giving swim lessons, playing 42, the Dallas Cowboys and of course the Rockets - who are also her husband's all time favorite team by the way.

My Mom: She is now working for Mayde Creek High School as an 11th grade US AP history teacher, and she's awesome at it :). She also does a lot of teacher training, and is sought after all over the USA, and spends much of her summer 'vacation' traipsing around training other teachers. Since this picture, which was approximately 17 years ago, she has gone through a cancer battle, moved to a new city - started a new job, and is still a member of the praise team at church. She loves to read, and watch musicals, visit with her children and Dylan, and see new places that have influenced her heritage.

My Dad: Is now working for a seismic company, and is very good at selling data across the US. He is working for Geokinetics, and is no longer self-employed. Since this picture, he has lost several siblings, and has gone through his own near death experience, and is forever changed by it. He enjoys singing, golfing, and golf tv, and golfing, and his children. He was a great rock for our family and remains this still.

Me: Well in this picture I was about 13, and since then I have done much. Some to be proud of, and some I have learned from. I graduated HS, and College, and got married and had a child. I now enjoy reading (still...always), music, playing games, watching musicals/movies, and hanging out with friends and family.

In a nutshell, I guess my family has grown up, and we have experienced several things that have made us grow closer as a family. It's fun to see what we we looked like then, with great expectations, and figure out whether or not those expectations were realized.

Half Done

So I have tons of stuff on my To Do List (and yes, I actually make this list and keep it updated). Currently on my list is :
1. FINISH MOM'S WEBSITE!!!! - Yes it's written just like that...and the website is for her AP program at school, she's super involved in it and wants to get kids on board with taking AP classes. If you are interested the work in progress looks like THIS.
2. Find a couch - My sisters best friend has graciously offered to give me one of her cast off couches, and I have no idea what it looks like, but it would be exciting just to have a couch. Maybe in the future I'll buy the one I want. Something neutral, kid friendly, and comfy that isn't ugly.
3. Finish unpacking - I have been in my apartment since the end of March and I still haven't unpacked or put away everything or made it pretty the way I want - hopefully that is coming soon...THEN I will post pics to my adoring fans :) (or the couple of people that actually look at my blog occasionally :)).
4. Tag Tim's Truck - uhh...this truck is a pain, and we need to get it tagged so we can hopefully sell it, and we haven't tagged it yet because we don't have the money to do so.
5. Buy some kind of organizer for D's room - this boy has toys EVERYWHERE, and I am hoping some kind of place to put them will help him with his need to have everything in it's place. :)
6. Go to the store and buy an organizer for work, a planner for work, and a scale - so I have recently gone on a diet, but I have no idea what kind of progress I am making, because I do not own a scale. The stuff for work I am hoping will make me more organized :).
7. Send out D's Pictures - So Dylan got his school pictures done in May, and I have yet to send them to anyone, I know I'm awful.
8. Buy Christmas Cards - So this is a weird one maybe, because it is August, but I love Christmas, and I love giving and receiving cards it makes me feel cheery, and it takes me a while to find ones that I love.
9. Get a loan for a new car - If Tim's truck doesn't sell this is my next step, to trade in both vehicles for one car.
10. Get D's hair cut - it's that time again, he needs one!
So maybe this isn't an overly long list, but this doesn't include my day to day stuff...it's just the extra that I need to get done. Kinda a pain. THEN, my friend introduced me to this really cool website that I'm excited about putting down my ideas on...perhaps I will get inspired to finish decorating my house :)!

Party Theme!

So I have determined what D's party theme will be. With help from friends and family and of course taking into account my little man's own preferences I have come up with theme 'Under Construction'. Dylan loves all things having to do with cars and trucks and dump trucks, so I thought this would be a fun play on the things he likes :).
A reccommendation of party city and a link from a friend showed me there were TONS of stuff I could purchase for the party. I love THIS pinata and think it will be a fun semi organized game maybe even 2 year olds can handle. I was also thinking about filling a plastic pool from Walmart or the like with dirt and getting some trucks like THESE for the kids to play with in the pool/dirt outside whateverness.
As far as food goes, I haven't quite decided yet. I'm debating between pizza, hotdogs or chicken nuggets. What do you think? All three of these are a favorite of D's. Cupcakes are a must, they went over so well last year...but haven't finalized the ideas on those. And of course we will have balls and bubbles, because these are essential for D to play outside. No balloons or streamers or fancy decorations. I will probably get a solid colored plastic table cover that I can tape to an outdoor table, and get some special underconstruction napkins or cups and plates to complete the party decor. What do you think? Not necessarily fantastically creative, but I think it encompasses Dylan and things he likes to do.

Itching For Something New

I have been feeling a little restless in my everyday life here lately. Not exactly sure why, because heaven knows I have enough to do in a day to keep myself occupied. I mean, I know tons of people have it worse off than me and have more things to do than myself, and I have tons to be grateful for...but I do have a lot to do:
My daily life:
1. Get up - and OMG I'm SOOOOOOOO bad at this one, I always press snooze like five million times before I actually sit up.
2. Get Ready - not the best at this one either, but fashion and general making myself look put together has never been a strong suit - it was much easier when I was in high school, and didn't have to look like an adult!
3. Get Dylan's cup - this one is EXTREMELY important, as first thing in the morning he wants a drink in a big way, and if you fail to do this step, life will not be pleasant until it is rectified - amazing how my child has trained me so well.
4. Get Dylan's Clothes ready - pretty self explanatory, but I will say he has a much easier selection to put together.
5. Get the diaper - cause lets face it, dirty diapers are a reality.
6. Get the D! - love this part, because he gives me a kiss and then proceeds to take a drink of the cup he has trained me to fetch for him.
7. Get him dressed - Yes, he is still holding his cup at this point :).
8. Gather all my crap and leave - this crap consists of whatever I brought home to work on the night before, occasionally diapers/wipes/extra clothes/swim suit for Dylan for his daycare, my purse, my phone - this is EXTREMELY important, my lunch bag, and of course Dylan - did I mention that he has trained me well?
9. Drive to Dylan's school - uneventful :)
10. Drop him off - on a side note he never says bye to me, and this is bothersome.
11. Drive to the Gas Station - and there I proceed to buy the largest Diet Coke I can possibly find, and yes I do this every morning.
12. Drive to work - this is boring, but my sister in law has been nice enough to talk to me on the way to make it not so boring :)
13. Work - while this isn't generally boring, it is never the same, and thus hard to create a synopsis for :).
14. Drive home - again talking to people and accomplishing the odds and ends calls you have to make in your life, because they don't seem to call you.
15. Pick up Dylan - this is mostly fun, but sometimes Dylan is incredibly whiny. He is incredibly happy to see me :).
16. Give D a snack - have I mentioned that I am well trained?
17. Gather my crap and go upstairs - see aforementioned crap for the list.
18. Find Dinner - I say find, because sometimes this doesn't include actually cooking.
19. Eat
20. Give D a bath - he enjoys this, and it gives me a little time to relax :)
21. Play with D a bit - this includes playing with cars, or reading books, or any number of things :).
21a. Tim puts D to bed - I put this in here just in case you wonder why D isn't sleeping! I never put him in the bed, I can't handle the crying.
22. Attempt to do some cleaning - this can include, but hasn't yet, the massive pile of both clean and dirty clothes that I have yet to address, or the kitchen or whatever.
23. Relax! - watching tv, reading, farmville, playing random card/domino games with Tim :)...oooh and maybe a glass of wine :D. (I found this really great one I like, and that is exciting to me and makes me feel fancy...just saying).
24. Shower - yes I do get clean at least once a day :).
25. Read - I love to read...and I do so every night!
26. Sleep - yay! And this is usually between 11:30 and 12:00am.
WHEW! I have no idea why I felt the need to list my day for you all, but I did, and it was a lot of work so I'm not deleting it, feel free to bypass the list all together.
I think I want a new fashion style, or hair style or something. I decided that I am looking boring lately. And maybe that stems from having a routine, I am SO not used to having one of those. I feel the need to dye my hair pink or purple or get some fun and funky new clothes. The problem with this is - I have no idea what! Ok maybe there is two problems, the second is I am not that great with the whole fashion/makeup/hairstyle thing (see 2 on the list).
What do you think about THIS hairstyle? Obviously this is not pink or purple or anything overly funky, but it is maybe something I can do at home. THIS is totally fun! Isn't it? Maybe with just pink and purple...:). And I'm thinking some new fun flats :), I can totally buy shoes! THESE might be on the agenda!
All this nonsensical ramblings just to say - I am not used to having a routine, and after years of hoping, wishing and praying for one, I have a home - a routine - a 'normal' life, and I feel bitter that I am feeling the need for some kind of makeover. I mean, I have wanted this for a long time! I am upset at myself for wanting more, because my dream of being in one place is now a reality. But maybe I'm being too hard on myself? I was a gypsy for a long time, and it's hard to go from one extreme to another. Maybe just a little personal change, instead of physical location change...:) I think I can handle that!

Parties-Work-Parties and Whatever Other Randomness I can Come up with

So my friend had what looked like a terrific party for her son last weekend, and it has inspired me to start thinking about Dylan's birthday party! But I am uninspired....I have NO idea what to do for a kid that is turning two while we are living in an apartment. Everything that you can go to like the jump houses or chuckeecheese either seem too old, too expensive, or too generic.
I could have a pool party at our apartment pool...but is the end of September a good time to be swimming? Alas I have no idea...I will continue to brainstorm - and am welcoming all ideas on this front.
I am playing catch up today at work - funny isn't it? I am blogging instead of catching up! Oh well, it has waited this long it can wait a few more minutes. Anyhow, during my mundane catching up at work thing I have been thinking about life. Don't worry, I am not going to get philisophical - just thinking about boring things like what to serve for dinner, and the fact that I sold my stock yesterday and wonder when that check will come in, and that diapers are so freaking expensive - and perhaps I should invest in one of those companies, and when are we going to get Tim's car out of the shop - because I am tired of paying for a rental. AND, I have been throwing royal pity parties for myself and really need to stop that.
Yes, I have been acting like I am 2. I get all bent out of shape for NO apparent reason - or even if I have a reason, I am overreacting. I am starting to get on my own nerves. So, I am vowing on my blog, with my vast audience of 1 or 2 people as a witness, to try harder to not get so pissy - I'll keep you posted.
So, I have also been thinking about a new car! We are going to consolidate to one vehicle instead of two and trade in both of our cars for one car. Any ideas? My husband wants to get this car, and I don't know how I feel about it. This is going to be MY car not his! Maybe I'm just being pissy again. Anyone else have any ideas? Something gas friendly prefered!
I think I succeeded in all over the map on this one :) I hope everyone else followed my disconnected thought process!

The Job Pull

So about 4 months ago I was frantically trying to get a job - because the one I was offered was turned down. Now I'm trying to figure out how to set boundaries for myself in my current job, and how to turn down an offer from an incredible company, AND send out resumes to more companies because apparently I'm pretty popular at the moment.
Amazing how much time can change your situation.
I don't know how to tell the amazing company that I'm going to pass on their offer - I don't even know if that is the best decision! I have weighed the pros and cons, and I don't know what the 'right' answer is. But I think I know what the 'right now' answer is...but uncertainty is heavy! How you make decisions like that without your head exploding is beyond me - and suggestions are more than welcome!
So now, I am awaiting my offer from the 'big dog' because who doesn't want to work for a big dog in their field? I mean it would like working for a mom & pop computer shop, and Apple gives you a call and says they want you! Fabulous - I hope I have that feeling one day! So I'm waiting, and trying to figure out how to break it off with a company...that part kind of sucks.

I

I've seen this on a few other blogs before, and thought I'd try it too...

I am....restless, needy, loved, cherished

I have....a life full of endless possibilities, and a fabulous husband, son and apartment too

I want....security

I fear....I will never find a place I fit outside my home and family.

I would....love to make my money problems cease to exist

I don't....exercise like I should

I did....quit my job, and it felt pretty good.

I didn't....have a plan on how life was going to work after the job was no more.

I will....go on a vacation with just me and my husband - take our honeymoon.

I won't....do the dishes unless I absolutely have to

I can....do artistic things - I'm pretty good at flower arrangements and all things crafty, surprisingly.

I can't....become bogged down by the pressures and stresses in life

I could....go for a nice drink with good friends.

I couldn't....be apart from my family, so we made the decision for us to not travel anymore.

I always....carry my cell phone - even if it is dead.

I never....have been to Washington DC, but I have always wanted to go!

I hate....when people won't let me do the job I was hired for.

I believe....that boredom is a state of mind.

I imagine....all the time, I love to let my mind wonder.

I regret....not getting married in a church, and having pictures taken, and a lovely honeymoon - but only part of me, the other part wonders why people normally spend so much on one day and that part of me also wonders if I should have experienced it for myself.

I speak....often, but sometimes I still feel unheard.

I sing....not as often as I used to, and I miss it.

I write....in my brain a lot, but it rarely makes it onto something for others to see.

I enjoy....spending time with my mom - the older I get the more I love doing it.

I eat....the outside of a kit kat bar first

I drink....tea - I don't know why, but I love it.

I like....sparkly flats and my favorite blue jeans, and playing silly games on the computer.

I wish....we would win the lottery and never have to worry about money and my family would be taken care of forever.

I hope....and I am learning how to build my hope on Jesus and His salvation - it has been a long road for me.

I remember....life before Dylan, and Life after

I enjoy....sleeping,reading, musicals, shopping, and spending time with Tim & D

I miss....sleeping in!

I feel....lucky :).

I work....a lot, but I am grateful because it is not fun to not have a job

I dream....of owning a house and having another child

I see....everything moving so fast.

I hear....my son crying at night these days - I think he's having nightmares :(

I know....that my life has a Divine compass, and all I need to do is follow it.

I love....good friends, hot chocolate, diet coke, shopping, going to a musical, enjoying movies with my husband and playing with my son

I am....an oxymoron, complicated, simple, ever evolving.

Random Survey I Have Acquired

What bill do you hate paying the most?
Personally, I don't enjoy paying ANY bills...

Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
We went to Olive Garden, if you can call a meal with the 3 of us romantic...if not it was Spaghetti Warehouse...lol I guess we love Italian!

What do you really want to be doing right now?
Napping

How many colleges did you attend?
3 :) But only graduated from 1

Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?
Because it's the only longsleeved one I have!

What are your thoughts on gas prices?
It's okay...high gas prices help keep me employed! It's like $2.58 here atm

First thought when the alarm went off this morning?
Do I have to get up now? Or can I press snooze?

Last thought before going to sleep last night?
I should hurry and get as much sleep I have! Morning comes early!

Do you miss being a child?
No, I like my life :)

What errand/chore do you despise
I hate dishes :(

Get up early or sleep in?
SLEEP IN!

Have you found real love yet?
Absolutely

Favorite lunch meat?
Roast beef or turkey

What do you get every time you go into Wal-Mart?
Something for Dylan :) He's spoiled!

Beach or lake?
Lake :)

Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?
NOt at all, it's a wonderful show of the commitment for yourself and for others. :)

Sopranos or Desperate Housewives?
What not to wear!

What famous person would you like to have dinner with?
Someone from Charmed! I love that show!

Have you ever crashed your vehicle?
No and I would like to keep it that way.

Ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?
No and I am grateful :)

Ring tone?
It's by Atreyu Ex's and Oh's

Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth?
My car :D

Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go?
I suppose San Francisco :) I'm going in March!

Do you go to church?
unfortunately not atm, but I would LOVE to change that

At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship?
Career..I want to be able to work 9-5 and be home on weekends, and not have work come home with me...that would be GREAT!

How old are you?
28

Do you have a go to person?
um?

Are you where you want to be in life?
I am happy, but I have things I'd like to change and goals I'd like to achieve :)

Growing up, what were your favorite cartoons?
Carebears, Strawberry Shortcake & Rainbow Brite

What about you do you think has changed the most?
since I was little? Hopefully a lot, I hope to continue to learn and grow forever :)

Looking back at high school were they the best years of your life?
I loved high school, but I love now :)

Are there times u still feel like a kid?
yes :) when I see fireworks, or open presents, or eat my favorite ice cream etc

Did you ever own troll dolls?
not a large one, but I had a pencil topper that I won at school

Did you have a pager?
Yes, I actually did! It was maroon :)

Where was the hang out spot when you were a teenager?
I did a lot of extracurricular activities so wherever they took me :) and Church!.

Were you the type of kid you would want your children to hang out with?
I think I was a good kid, so yes

Who do you think impacted your life the most?
My parents....some good some bad

Was there a teacher or authority figure that stood out to you?
I loved my senior year english teacher, he was my absolute favorite...Mr. Manuel!

Do you tell stories that start with “when I was your age”?
yes...makes me feel so old!