Finally Able to Breathe!

So I made the call.

This weekend I met with my sister and her husband, who is also an accountant, and went over our bills/budget. It was painful and invasive, but it needed to be done. We needed some help! We figured out that my Devon job was not even available for consideration given the money we are obligated to every month right now. So that made the decision clear - I have to stay where I am. I am a bit sad about it, but mostly just fine. It would have been nice working for an awesome company like Devon - but it's a whole lot nicer to have food and gas for the cars.
This morning I called Devon to tell them that I couldn't come work for them. The lady, as everyone I have ever talked to there has been, was incredibly nice and said that I need to make the decision that's best for my family, and she understands it is just business. I feel better already!