So Tired

You know, it has not been my best year ever. Definitely not the most exciting one. I feel like I am alienated by everyone and everything that I have ever known and loved, and I'm out on my own. I hate that feeling. I hate feeling alone and unsupported. Tim loves me and he supports me, but my family would rather me not even be in the picture the way it feels. They would rather celebrate things without me, and just get on without me.
Maybe I'm beibng overly sensitive, or have some kind of pregnancy hormones going on, who knows? All i know is how I feel right now. And I feel like my family could care less whether I was here or not and whether or not I am thriving or dying. They have moved on without me they don't need me. And I'm tired of feeling sorry for myself, but I don't know how to move on. I fail.

My Baby

This is my baby. In a few weeks I will find out the sex of the baby. Exciting times!

Truths

You know, so many things around me lately have been changing. My life has been a rough ride for about 3 weeks. I have found out a lot of things, about myself and a few things I guess I just didn't want to face about others.
It is rough for me, and I guess everyone, to figure out who their true friends are, who will truly be there when times get tough. And as I found out yesterday the number of people I thought I could count on has decreased by 2. I guess I shouldn't be surprised. I know I shouldn't blame them for not being able to be supportive, but I am mad. I was there for these two individuals when no one else wanted to be at different times in their lives. And the one time I need support and someone to lean on all they want to do is act as though I am only trying to outshine them when they feel like all attention should be on themselves.
I am not asking for attention, just support, I don't want to outshine them or take away from what they are doing, but apparently they think everyone in this world is as equally self involved as they are. i didn't mean to start this and rant, but I am truly upset. I invest a lot in people I care about, and I feel like all I did was waste my time on people who don't hold me in any higher esteem than someone they are in constant competition with. I am tired of that. I am not competing...I am trying to live.. when will they see that the only people they have ever been competing against is themselves?

Whirlwind

Wow...it has been forever, 6 months to be exact, since I wrote on here. I always promise to come back and be a loyal member of the blogging community, but then I forget and life just happens. Ok, let us recap, shall we?
Went to Vegas for Michelle's Birthday....




Had a blast!
I started a new job, which is new and challenging, but I think is good for me! I got a new car...



That isn't brand new, but is new to me! I had a wonderful Christmas with my family...

and had a great time just hanging out with them. Joelle got engaged...

to Keith Hardin and are planning to marry sometime next fall. I went to Louisiana with Michelle & visited with her father...

and had a lot of fun just relaxing, cause everything is slower in Louisiana. Michelle got a new car...

that she was supremely excited about! Whew! It's been an interesting few months, but now you are updated with pictures even! I will try to be more committed so this isn't a twice yearly picture montage. Thanks for reminding me Jenn!

FOURTH OF JULY and other Randomness

So, again I fail at the blogging maintenance /sigh at me. Well at least I didn't go forever this time without blogging :). Bright side ppl, work with me here! Anyhow, here's just a brief whatever to show you some fabulous fourth of July photos, mostly because I <3 the fireworks :), yes I'm like a kid like that, thanks for noticing!

Sleepy

Sleep is something I either seem to get way too much of or way too little of. I stay up for days at a time or sleep for hours andhours and hours...Why can't I get the daily allotted amount of sleep you ask? My conclusion is because I'm retarded :). I seem to think that by going to bed early I will miss something extemely important in the world...but I have no problem stayin up all night then sleeping the day away. Looking at this realistically I have decided that I'm dumb...and there's no good reason to stay up all night just to sleep all day. But that's not the way I feel when I actually am up at 3am. I'm thinking, I'm having fun, I should just stay up, etc...I think I'd like it best if I never had to sleep...Random rants from a person who hasn't been to sleep in a while :). I didn't want to be neglectful, and since all I can possibly think about at the moment is sleeping I thought I would have an entire blog dedicated to the subject.
The bright side to staying up all night is that I have no problem getting to work on time or getting dressed like a semi-adult...:) The negatives, of course, are that I'm sleepy...DUH. Anyhow, perhaps one day I'll figure out why I'm retarded or realize that I'm not actually missing anything and I need to get some rest...I hope that day comes soon!

Whirlwind...

So, it's been a while...I've been very neglectful to my blog and my blogging audience of 1 (sorry Jenn). It's been a whirlwind couple of months...I'll give you an overview:

I've had an upper respiratory infection then an ear ache. After which I went to New York..AND IT WAS PHENOMINAL! Then I had another ear ache (ear aches really do suck big booty btw. I've had lots of time to be extremely lazy and screw up my internal clock even more (go me). I've been to Louisiana and ate crawfish and had some alcohol! (wooooohooo for LA!), did a mini job in Oklahoma (the first one completely on by myself!). I've gotten a miniature pinscher and named her Abby...who has become a royal pain in my ass. I have just started a 'training' job with a landman company just outside of Fort Worth and I'm learning the ins and outs of mineral title from patent which is sometimes really interesting and a lot of times really slow :) I like knowing it already!

:) YAY! I am excited I am back to blogging now...full force! I'll try not to let u down again! Here are some random pictures :).