Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Picture Surveys are fun!

Go to photobucket, type in the answer to your question and select & copy the HTML code...then paste it in the answer field!
FAVORITE MOVIE (pick one if you have many)
My favorite Movie

FAVORITE BAND (pick one if you have many):
marc broussard
FAVORITE TV SHOW (pick one if you have many):
charmed
FAVORITE ACTOR (pick one if you have many):
Steven Segal
Not exactly sure why he's my fav, but he is!
FAVORITE ACTRESS (pick one if you have many):
Drew Barrymore
BIGGEST FEAR:
Understanding
HIGH SCHOOL MASCOT:
eagle
CAR YOU DRIVE:
Nissan Pathfinder
Except not this color...:) one of many cars actually
PET YOU CURRENTLY HAVE:
bengal
2 brown ones like this...and a silver one :) Bengal kitties

FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE:
sweet tea junkie
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE:
White Russian
YOUR ZODIAC SIGN:taurus
YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH:
April
MOST MEMORABLE VACATION:
Canada
FAVORITE SPORT:baseball
FAVORITE TEAM:
Yankee
FAVORITE HOLIDAY:
christmas

Friday, January 25, 2008

I Am Not Nice Enough to Be...

Today I discovered things about myself. Exciting, huh? I love learning new things. Anyhow, from the beginning…I was thinking about me, and who I am and my personality in relation to jobs etc and which I'd clearly lack the 'niceness' quality to be. By niceness quality, I'm talking about the one that is comforting to all, regardless of your actions and how stupid whatever you just did was, and truly finding the strength to want to help this person without beating sense into them.

For example, nursing is a profession beyond what I could ever undertake. For one, I can't do blood or insert needles into someone, I think I would throw up...or pass-out or both, which is probably a prereq to being in the field. You cannot throw up or pass out on patients probably ranks right up there with washing your hands before you touch them or something. But the other quality I think I'm lacking is my inability to not want to hit someone who lets say ran with scissors and got them stuck in his nose. Or pushed popcorn kernels in his ears...these things would be a trifle annoying to me. Kids are understandably going to stick stuff places, but adults should definitely know better. I would probably laugh at the first adult that came in with something like that wrong with them On the flipside to that coin, I also think I would bring too much emotion to the table for a family that was going through something hard…crying with them, trying to comfort them, getting too close. In short, nursing is not for me.

Come to think of it, I don’t think I could do any of the medical professions well…see above for reasons. Even psychiatry would be difficult for me, while the blood issue would be moot, I would still have problems with people wallowing and their inability to move on after a certain period of time. After a while, I’m afraid, I would tell them to just do something already and stop being stupid. This is probably not the best thing to tell someone who is seeing a psychiatrist. Then there would also be the cases where I would get too close, and feel too much taking on their problems as my own. That would be exhausting.
My issue that would fluctuate between wanting people to stop being stupid, and wanting to help so much their problems became my own keeps me out of the professions that require the ‘niceness’ quality. Instead, I will doodlebug having to deal with issues beyond what is personal in nature is much easier for me to distance myself from. While people are stupid everywhere, and I’m including myself in that category, it’s always easier for me to take the easy way out of dealing with them personally. This is because I’m not tolerant enough, and also because I am too empathetic….weird combo, I know.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Fun Picture Survey!

1) Answer the questions below

2) Take each answer and type it into Photobucket
3) Take a picture from the first page of results copy the html code.
4) You cant copy the persons answers who posted this before you

1.age on next birthday?..
27

2. place you would like to travel?
new york
New York :)

3. Your favorite place?
homehome

4. Your Favorite object?
phone
can't go anywhere without it

5. your favorite food?
spaghettispaghetti! yum!

6. Favorite Animal?turtlelove turtles, so cute


7. Favorite Color?
Red


8. The town where you were born?
beeville

9. The town where you live in?
Chickasha

10. Pet(s) name(s)?
charmed

11. Your nickname?
To Jess
Jess...but this is the only one i found that wasn't of some random person..
12. Middle Name?
helen

13. Last name?
rosas
Rosas :)

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Natal Chart

I've always found studying my personality, and people's impressions of my personality fascinating. It's always appealed to me to take the stupid tests that come on the internet to see if I'm more like a certain movie star, or classified as a certain kind of car. I simply love delving into how others perceive me and how similar or different it is to the way I perceive myself. I look at astrology in much the same way and find it truly interesting to find out what someone decided the stars said about me...and my personality...so here you go, my natal chart :).

Seesaw
You have the planetary pattern called the 'seesaw' type. With your planets divided into two distinct groups, you are very balanced in your outlook, always being aware of both sides of an issue, always able to compromise between opposing points of view. In this way you are quite similar to a Libra personality.
Yod, focal planet Sun
You have a Yod planetary aspect pattern in your chart, also known as the 'finger of God'. This pattern consists of two different planets forming Inconjunct aspects of 150` to a third, or focal, point. Usually there will be a marked emphasis on the area of life represented by this focal point, which may be one planet, or two or more in conjunction. You may have physical or psychological problems associated with the expression of the energies of the focal planet or planets, creating a subtle form of tension in your life. Your lesson is to transform the expression of these energies along more positive lines.
The Sun represents your will and purpose, your sense of vitality and your evolving higher Self. In the sign Taurus it is Fixed-Earth, and rules the throat. Your ruling planet is Venus. Taureans revel in the pleasures of life. You crave the security and comfort of relaxing in the warmth of your home environment. You value the senses and the enjoyment of material things. You are likely to work hard to make your home an attractive one. You also have the makings of a healer and you have a large capacity for kindness. Although you are quiet on the surface, almost passive, you possess a powerful will and can be quite stubborn at times, and perhaps somewhat rigid in your thinking. You also tend to be loving, obedient and loyal. Material rewards seem to come easily to you, and you are able to lead the good life without being excessively concerned about it. You are practical, and provide a purposeful, productive and stabilizing influence for yourself and those around you.
The Sun in the Seventh House represents a concentration of the vital force to relate with others in partnership. You gravitate towards others, who serve to reflect your deeper self back to you. You prefer working together with another person, rather than strictly on your own. You enjoy developing the exchange of interpersonal expression and joint efforts. You have an intuitive sense of what partnership requires, and strive to become more aware of the inner needs of two people relating with one another on a committed basis. You are very aware of the other as a mirror for your own selfhood. You sense yourself as part of a unit rather than merely an isolated ego. You may keenly feel the need for an intimate partner to flesh out your unconscious areas of self, and you may alternate between losing your sense of self from within relationship to finding your sense of identity and power in that way. You benefit from recognizing that everything you seek in another is really an important part of yourself, and that being involved with others on an interpersonal level is a means of exploring your own basic nature.

Important Features
Venus in Taurus (6° Tau 47') Venus in the Seventh House
Venus in Taurus gives an earthy and practical love nature, very ardent and nurturing. This is a powerful placement of Venus, and your emotions are strong and long-lasting. You are very loyal, and also apt to be a trifle possessive. You know what you want to get out of life, and can be quite stubborn about it. You are also very sensual, social and easy to get along with. Living in the material world comes naturally to you. You have good luck with finances, and would excel in professions such as lawyer, real estate broker, or loan officer. Gardening and personal or home décor are likely hobbies. You like living the good life, and you will always have an abiding sense of enjoyment from music and the arts.
Venus in the Seventh House represents a strongly felt connection to partnerships with others. Relationships are important to you. You are also inclined to be "young at heart". You feel at your best when acting in concert with another person, especially an intimate partner. Then your natural gifts of grace, diplomacy and charm come to the fore. What is nice on your own becomes really nice with another. You have a gentle personality, very considerate and kind. You also have refined aesthetic and artistic sensibilities, and a keen sense of color. You have the potential to excel in many professions, including legal work and diplomacy. You tend to idealize your chosen love partner, and you benefit from the realization that the true source of grace and beauty in your life comes from within your own nature.
Pluto in Libra (22° Lib 41'R) Pluto in the First House
Pluto in the First House (or sign) gives you a tremendous drive to transform yourself as you go through life. You have a powerful personality, and a charismatic way about you that others respect. You may actually appear to be timid or unsure of yourself on the surface, but you have the potential to suddenly burst out in anger due to repressed emotions finally exploding. You are also apt to sweep all aspects of your former life before you in a sudden change that it seems simply must come. You may feel insecure or afraid or perhaps jealous of others at times, and may compensate by being extremely forceful. You can also be compulsive, even obsessive, in achieving your will. You have the power to really get things done, and this power can be used either to bolster your own ego or else for the good of all concerned. Your challenge is movement away from feelings of insecurity and resulting separateness and loneliness, toward an acceptance of your own and other's needs and opinions in order to generate a new and better sense of self. In your most positive manifestation, you possess a dedication to higher ideals and a willingness to be a channel for healing yourself and society.
The following applies to your generation as a whole as well as to you personally:
Pluto in Libra (or the seventh house) gives you a focus on forming close emotional attachments. You may have difficulties in marriage and partnerships; but there are also great rewards to be gained in this area. You may feel a compulsion to be liked by others. Conversely, you can also become involved in power struggles with partners. You have a depth of passion within you that isn't obvious or recognized, and you may seek to project this power drive onto a relationship partner, rather than directly own up to it. You may therefore find yourself in relationship with dark or manipulative personality types, who may exhibit openly the tendencies you have yourself at a more hidden level. You are likely to go through many changes in your relationship dynamic, as you come to understand more fully your inner process. You may exhibit strong attractions toward close involvement with another person, and simultaneously have fears regarding such attachments. Time and moving through the fires of difficulties may lead you to a painful re-examination of your goals in these areas. Wisdom is required in the handling of close relationships in order to transform the partnership energy into a growing and conscious act of sharing, and to find your own inner strength independent of others around you.
Moon in Sagittarius (12° Sag 38' 20") Moon in the Second House
The moon in Sagittarius gives an uninhibited, freedom-loving personality which may incline to the restless. You are very idealistic, and see the best side of everyone. You are happy and fun to be around. You are also apt to be impatient. You tend to react to situations with action rather than with reflection. You can also be unrealistic in your approach to situations. You should learn to temper your idealism with reality in setting out to achieve your high aspirations.
The Moon in the Second House represents being emotionally connected with one's values, with one's possessions, or the material things in this world. You may feel that your self-worth is connected with the physical manifestation of material wealth or material comfort. Your values are very important to you. You may feel compelled toward gaining material wealth or possessions when your emotional life is unfulfilling. You can also be quite generous. Your finances may fluctuate throughout your lifetime as you move through various emotional growth phases. When you follow your gut feelings you are likely to be successful financially. You excel in occupations which deal with meeting the wants and needs of other people. You feel most comfortable and secure when your values and emotions are clearly defined and you can act upon them.
Neptune in Sagittarius (24° Sag 40'R) Neptune in the Third House Neptune in the Third House (or sign) gives a clever personality with subtle charm. You are witty and poetic. You are fond of higher education, but you tend to be a dreamer and may miss out on serious study because of it. You see the world through the mystical third eye, rather than the usual binocular setup that allows most people to get along. Because of your extraordinary visionary viewpoint you may see more than others and also miss out on some of the mundane details. You may suffer some confusion regarding communication received, or perhaps where close relatives are concerned, or have feelings of insecurity stemming from your early years, that carries over into adult life. You can be indecisive and worrisome but you are also broad-minded and mentally creative. It benefits you to learn to focus your considerable creative potential, and to let yourself become a channel for higher forms of thought to flow into your own life, and through you into the world around you.

Monday, January 21, 2008

My sisters

Jarryn
Joelle

Upon reading my friends blog today, it inspired me to write a blog along similar lines...:). She wrote about her sister, such nice and sweet things...and I’m going to strive to give you a mental picture of who my sisters are and where they are in life :).

Joelle~ the middle sister, and I believe she truly imbibes all of those traits that middle siblings are said to have.

Middle children often feel like their older brother gets all the glory while their younger sister escapes all discipline. Because the middle child feels that the world pays him less attention, he tends to be secretive; he does not openly share his thoughts or feelings. Middle children may not feel they have a special place in the family so friends and peer groups become much more important. They can usually read people well, they are peacemakers who see all sides of a situation, they are independent and inventive. If a firstborn is a company's CEO, the middle child is the entrepreneur.
She’s definitely played the victim on more than one occasion, seeing things in life that never actually happened, and downplaying any presumed favoring she’s had from our parents. She’s inventive, and lively…always stealing the show. She enjoys being active and is constantly surrounded by friends. And in so many ways she’s my opposite. She is aggressive and direct, getting the job done and I tend to be overly passive and dismissive, and internalize far too much. I admire her tenacity for getting people to want to follow her and her direction. On the flip side to that coin, we clash sometimes too much, and she hurts my feelings…or I come off too abrupt for her…

Jarryn~ the youngest sister, with all these traits:

While lastborns may be charming, they also have the potential to be manipulative, spoiled or babied to the point of helplessness. "The last born is the one who will probably still have a pet name although he's 29 and has a masters degree," Leman says.

This may be true in some aspects. Jarryn is endlessly charming, and far cooler than I have ever or will ever be. People are attracted to her magnetism and general friendliness. She’s just a great friend. Sometimes I envy her seemingly endless ways to bond with so many different types of people. She’s a friend to all, and all clamor to be her friend.

Ok, now the fun part…me Jessica:

Clearly, firstborns are natural leaders. They also tend to be reliable, conscientious and perfectionists who don't like surprises. Although, firstborns are typically aggressive, many are also compliant people pleasers. They are model children who have a strong need for approval from anyone in charge.
Ok, maybe it’s harder to see when you’re delving into yourself than looking at others. But I’m going to try J. I do believe I may possess some leadership qualities, and I’m generally reliable, conscientious and a perfectionist. But…I love surprises J. I don’t believe I’m aggressive, although at times I strive to be more so, for many reasons but I am a people pleaser to a fault. I thrive under approval from people I admire and/or look up to.
All in all, I would love to take some of my sister’s qualities. Joelle’s tenacity, aggressiveness, her drive…and Jarryn’s magnetism, charm and ability to never meet a stranger. My sisters are amazing individuals that I wish I could be more like…and I strive everyday to be someone they too wish they could mimic.

Friday, January 18, 2008

Poem

I stumbled across this poem, or quote of sorts on my journey through the internet, and decided I enjoyed it enough to share it.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people
permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.

-Marianne Williamson

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Perceptions

Happiness is something people are spending their whole lives trying to attain. For some it's a place you get to when you achieve success, for others little pleasures in life bring joy. For far too many it’s a goal just out of reach, always something else needed to attain to achieve it, or some other milestone must be crossed before they expect happiness. For children it's almost expected for them to find the pure joy in little activities like making mud pies in the back yard, or finding their favorite candy in the candy dish and being allowed to eat it.

Happiness for adults, is sadly more complicated. I think thought and ideas and stress of trying to get things perfect, live up to whomever’s expectations, and just the trials of life drag adults down until they forget that happiness CAN be found in the little things. And I also firmly believe that happiness is all about your perception of life and how you choose to react to circumstances, your frame of mind if you will. Because I love quotes and I think this one is appropriate I'm going to throw it in now....wait for it...ok here you go:

"A happy person is not the person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." Hugh Downs.

Attitudes…J I like it. I try to live in that attitude, but sometimes it eludes me and other times it is just out of reach. I think of happiness personally as a life long adventure to always find those little things that brings a smile to your lips and warmth to your heart.

And I still get excited if I can find my favorite candy in the candy dish.