So my friend Jenn wrote this fabulous post about random revealing things about herself...and it was so much fun to read I thought I'd give it a try - by the by, her blog is excellent and I recommend reading it she seems to find a place to connect with you no matter where you are in life :). And so my List begins!
I love Diet Coke, but I feel really weird ordering a Quarter Pounder and a large Diet Coke...I feel the need to explain no I am not on a diet - obviously, I just enjoy Diet Coke!
I love to bake! But I hate to do dishes - and I feel the need to bake in a kitchen that is spotless when I start...so baking is a long process for me.
I love to write - lists or whatever, but only in blue or purple ink. It just looks prettier, and only ball point please!
I enjoy doing 10 key things. It is fun :)
Coloring is one of my all time favorite past times - I love the way crayons smell.
I very much want to sing - and am hurt when my father doesn't want to give me constructive criticism that I can work with.
My house is an absolute disaster area - all the time. This is why it takes me so long to bake.
Whenever I have some one come over to clean the house (I am paying them, mind you) I clean before they get there so I don't appear to be an absolute slob.
My car is in a similar state as my house - and I despise it, but can never seem to find the time to get it cleaned up!
I am obsessed with surveys that tell you your personality type, or pretend to dissect the way you think. I suppose I am obsessed with analyzing myself?
I love the way bible pages sound when they are being flipped. I suppose it doesn't have to be a bible...just the really thin pages.
I can eat a whole jar of Tostitos Spinach Artichoke dip in a few settings by myself. I prefer to eat this than any number of other things.
Monday, February 27, 2012
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
The Superfluous Hair Post
So I have been thinking about my hair a bit lately. I know it's not as awe inspiring or thought evoking as contemplating the universe or the meaning of life...but that's what I have been doing. I REALLY am craving something new in my life and I think a new hair do will fit the bill just right. Normally I would be about to move somewhere new or start a new job - but I am a homebody now, and so hair is where it's at for me at the moment.
So I don't know how most people go about having a new hair style. For me it's a lot of looking and looking and looking, and then I find like 15 things I like, so I end up going to the hair salon and tell them to do just whatever or try to combine these totally off the wall things that don't go. There are alot of articles out there about face shape and haircuts that best go with whatever shape. I apparently have an oval face. I measured it with a booklet from the fire extinguisher training. In my office. I will wait while you have the mental image of me holding up a white folded booklet in front of my face both length wise and width wise. This took several times of trying, by the way, and I have no idea if anyone was watching - nor do I particularly care. This was all in the name of science and my new do! So I found a hair cut I like. Here it is. What do you think? I am also doing a color. I am contemplating something like THIS. Maybe a color other than purple - although I love the idea of it! So now I am getting excited. I will post pictures after completion :D. And maybe, just maybe I will go into the hair salon with a plan that is actually valid.
So I don't know how most people go about having a new hair style. For me it's a lot of looking and looking and looking, and then I find like 15 things I like, so I end up going to the hair salon and tell them to do just whatever or try to combine these totally off the wall things that don't go. There are alot of articles out there about face shape and haircuts that best go with whatever shape. I apparently have an oval face. I measured it with a booklet from the fire extinguisher training. In my office. I will wait while you have the mental image of me holding up a white folded booklet in front of my face both length wise and width wise. This took several times of trying, by the way, and I have no idea if anyone was watching - nor do I particularly care. This was all in the name of science and my new do! So I found a hair cut I like. Here it is. What do you think? I am also doing a color. I am contemplating something like THIS. Maybe a color other than purple - although I love the idea of it! So now I am getting excited. I will post pictures after completion :D. And maybe, just maybe I will go into the hair salon with a plan that is actually valid.
Friday, February 3, 2012
Big ideas
So I have a big idea. I haven't exactly nailed down all the details yet, and I have no idea how long it will take to come to fruition. I want to help people. I want to start a charity that will help people that can't get a leg up. I don't want to give them money, I don't want to feed the chaos, I want to help them get off the ground and show them how to walk on their own.
I don't quite understand why I feel like I need to do this - but I do. The idea came to me during my million dollar game adventure with Tim. For those who do not know what this is - well you just aren't imaginative enough :). Just kidding. It's just basically outlining what you would do if you suddenly came into a bunch of money. I like to play it. It feels like a release. I love the land of make believe - it's probably why I love to read. Anyhow, I had this idea and as soon as I have a concrete what I'm going to do and how etc I'll fill everyone in :).
I am excited about it. I have no idea how to do it. But I'm excited :)
I don't quite understand why I feel like I need to do this - but I do. The idea came to me during my million dollar game adventure with Tim. For those who do not know what this is - well you just aren't imaginative enough :). Just kidding. It's just basically outlining what you would do if you suddenly came into a bunch of money. I like to play it. It feels like a release. I love the land of make believe - it's probably why I love to read. Anyhow, I had this idea and as soon as I have a concrete what I'm going to do and how etc I'll fill everyone in :).
I am excited about it. I have no idea how to do it. But I'm excited :)
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Am I Really That Random? Yes I guess I am
I've long held on to the motto that I am random, and it's something that if you do indeed want to be my friend, you will just have to get over. I have been contemplating this lately - because I really don't think I am that random. I know everyone (or most everyone) else thinks so - I have been told it often enough in my life, but I have never felt like the things that come out of my mouth are really that random, I have just never really taken the time to explain my jump from point A to B. Often times it has a very logical line.
I will admit that my thought processes are quirky and perhaps something that reminds me of something will not ring the same reminder in someone else's mind. :)
Anyhow, as I have been contemplating all my randomness (I'm good at contemplating - maybe not at finding solutions, but contemplating yes :)I decided that it doesn't matter if other people have a hard time following my pattern of speaking or consider it random...I don't have a problem with it.
I guess I am going to demonstrate some of my characterized randomness from others now as I move to a widely different subject.
My husband's sister went off on me on facebook. On FACEBOOK. While I do not have a problem with people telling me where they ate or their opinions on things on the social network, I feel that telling people off in public that can be archived and read later is outside the scope of the site's purpose, and overall just out of line. She is angry with me for not communicating with her enough and for sending pics to other people and not her. Pretty much that's the long and short of it, or at least what I gathered from the spew that was coming from her keyboard. She called me names, she defamed my character, she was rude. I tried my best to be nice, and understanding etc even though all I really wanted to do was reach through my computer screen and slap her! I don't need this drama, I don't need that drama. Whatever drama you have, I'm not in the market to buy.
I will admit that my thought processes are quirky and perhaps something that reminds me of something will not ring the same reminder in someone else's mind. :)
Anyhow, as I have been contemplating all my randomness (I'm good at contemplating - maybe not at finding solutions, but contemplating yes :)I decided that it doesn't matter if other people have a hard time following my pattern of speaking or consider it random...I don't have a problem with it.
I guess I am going to demonstrate some of my characterized randomness from others now as I move to a widely different subject.
My husband's sister went off on me on facebook. On FACEBOOK. While I do not have a problem with people telling me where they ate or their opinions on things on the social network, I feel that telling people off in public that can be archived and read later is outside the scope of the site's purpose, and overall just out of line. She is angry with me for not communicating with her enough and for sending pics to other people and not her. Pretty much that's the long and short of it, or at least what I gathered from the spew that was coming from her keyboard. She called me names, she defamed my character, she was rude. I tried my best to be nice, and understanding etc even though all I really wanted to do was reach through my computer screen and slap her! I don't need this drama, I don't need that drama. Whatever drama you have, I'm not in the market to buy.
Monday, January 30, 2012
How - Letting Go
So my previous post helped me a lot more than I thought it would. It helped for me to verbalize what I was internalizing for weeks. It leads me to wonder what other things I have been hanging on to and how if I just said it outloud (or via the blogging hemisphere) perhaps I would feel freed.
I have long struggled with the casting your burdens down for God to carry. Perhaps it's because it's such a physical image, and obviously I can not physically take off the burden of money from my back and hand it over. I have struggled with it because I quite frankly didn't know how.
People often give you these flowery blurbs 'Let go and let God' etc, but does anyone actually sit down and tell you HOW. How do I let go? How do I cast all my cares upon Him?
Anyhow, all this to say somehow the physical transference of thoughts to a page helps me do just this. Lay it down, cast it away, let go. I need the physical to do the mental/heart transfer. I don't know if I'm alone in this, but I'm imagining not.
A few years ago I figured out I needed this physical transfer. I like lists, what can I say? So I started writing letters to God. It helped me so much to just say - here you go, I have written about it now I don't have to worry about it anymore. I still struggle with the 'letting go and letting God' but writing has become such a wonderful outlet for me. I know I don't write here as much as I should. But even typing out some lines on here makes me feel a little lighter. :)
Exodus 14:14 - this has become my mantra. It will be until I can completely let it take over my world. :)
I have long struggled with the casting your burdens down for God to carry. Perhaps it's because it's such a physical image, and obviously I can not physically take off the burden of money from my back and hand it over. I have struggled with it because I quite frankly didn't know how.
People often give you these flowery blurbs 'Let go and let God' etc, but does anyone actually sit down and tell you HOW. How do I let go? How do I cast all my cares upon Him?
Anyhow, all this to say somehow the physical transference of thoughts to a page helps me do just this. Lay it down, cast it away, let go. I need the physical to do the mental/heart transfer. I don't know if I'm alone in this, but I'm imagining not.
A few years ago I figured out I needed this physical transfer. I like lists, what can I say? So I started writing letters to God. It helped me so much to just say - here you go, I have written about it now I don't have to worry about it anymore. I still struggle with the 'letting go and letting God' but writing has become such a wonderful outlet for me. I know I don't write here as much as I should. But even typing out some lines on here makes me feel a little lighter. :)
Exodus 14:14 - this has become my mantra. It will be until I can completely let it take over my world. :)
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Dreaded
I have been delaying this post for several reasons. I am dreading what it will make me look like, and I am dreading people's reaction to it. Part of me wants to protect myself and save myself the vulnerable feeling that will inevitably follow me posting this publicly, but I have been putting it off long enough. I have thought about posting other things, but I think until I post this, I will be unable to move on in my semi-regular blogging adventure. I sound kinda melodramatic...and for this I apologize, I suppose I'm just trying to postpone as long as possible!
This is Kaylie Joy Pistole. She was born November, 10 2011 at 9:54pm weighing 5lbs 14oz and being 17.25 inches long and died on January 9, 2012. She was about 6 wks premature, and had to stay in the hospital for a week before she could be brought home. She was loved, and her loss is felt trememndously. She is survived by her 3 older siblings, Katlyn, Faith & Hope. Her passing has unleashed a whirlwind of emotion and much more tangible loss and chaos.
Her mom was/is (not sure how to define this, because it's just been a rough walk for us both) my best friend. I was deeply saddened by the loss of Kaylie's short life, and the emotions that would wreak havock on my friend, no matter how tumultuous our relationship. I feel guilty for not being able to be a more real part of this grieving process because I am located 3 hrs away. I feel guilty because I have only seen her once since Kaylie's passing, and did not attend the funeral/memorial/wake. And I feel guilty because I feel like Kaylie's passing is my friend's fault.
Let me back up, I do not think she's a bad mother, nor do I believe that she did anything malicious to harm her baby. I simply think she should have known better. She should have known better than to put an 8wk old baby to sleep on her stomach. She should have known better than to put a pillow in the baby's bassinet. It's an incredibly sad state of events, and I am so sorry it happened at all, and I am feeling incredibly guilty about my opinions/beliefs about the whole situation.
I feel like I cannot call my friend and talk to her without having awkward silences when she brings up anything to do with the baby's death. I don't want to tell her, and I don't think I SHOULD tell her my thoughts/opinions. What I really want is for that thought/opinion to go away. I want to convey that it's not her fault - but I can't bring myself to do it. All I can do is love her anyway at this point.
"Some moments last a lifetime, but sometimes moments are a lifetime."
This is Kaylie Joy Pistole. She was born November, 10 2011 at 9:54pm weighing 5lbs 14oz and being 17.25 inches long and died on January 9, 2012. She was about 6 wks premature, and had to stay in the hospital for a week before she could be brought home. She was loved, and her loss is felt trememndously. She is survived by her 3 older siblings, Katlyn, Faith & Hope. Her passing has unleashed a whirlwind of emotion and much more tangible loss and chaos.
Her mom was/is (not sure how to define this, because it's just been a rough walk for us both) my best friend. I was deeply saddened by the loss of Kaylie's short life, and the emotions that would wreak havock on my friend, no matter how tumultuous our relationship. I feel guilty for not being able to be a more real part of this grieving process because I am located 3 hrs away. I feel guilty because I have only seen her once since Kaylie's passing, and did not attend the funeral/memorial/wake. And I feel guilty because I feel like Kaylie's passing is my friend's fault.
Let me back up, I do not think she's a bad mother, nor do I believe that she did anything malicious to harm her baby. I simply think she should have known better. She should have known better than to put an 8wk old baby to sleep on her stomach. She should have known better than to put a pillow in the baby's bassinet. It's an incredibly sad state of events, and I am so sorry it happened at all, and I am feeling incredibly guilty about my opinions/beliefs about the whole situation.
I feel like I cannot call my friend and talk to her without having awkward silences when she brings up anything to do with the baby's death. I don't want to tell her, and I don't think I SHOULD tell her my thoughts/opinions. What I really want is for that thought/opinion to go away. I want to convey that it's not her fault - but I can't bring myself to do it. All I can do is love her anyway at this point.
"Some moments last a lifetime, but sometimes moments are a lifetime."
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Christmas is Nearly HERE!
I simply cannot believe Christmas is on Sunday. Where has the year gone? Where will next year go? Will I have enough time to crank out some pumpkin bread? Just a few reflections about this year, and because I am lazy and time has gotten away from me I have not sent out any kind of Christmas card this year - so consider this my Christmas newsletter from my family to you :).
This year a lot has happened (so cliche...but probably true most of the time)! Our little family took a big step out on faith and moved to Katy, TX from, well from wherever the job was before that - pretty much all over to one place :).
Tim is going to school to be an automotive technician and is loving it! He is doing well in school, and has passed 3 of his ASE certification tests already! I am immensely proud of the work he has put in and his success thus far in school, and he is excited to realize his goal of becoming a technician. Next year he plans on passing 6 more certification exams and becoming a Master Tech after his experience requirement is met, and hopes to get a job at a dealership as an assistant to get some hands on training. He is still loving video games, hanging out with our little man and working on Mia (his project car).
Jessica (that's me!) has made a change in career and is looking forward to what the next year may bring with the company she is currently employed with. I (sorry had to change tenses the 3rd person thing was weird) am loving being able to be home every night and to have a place to be able to become involved with a community and church. I joined a small book club and am enjoying interacting and reading new and different things! (I have ALWAYS wanted to be in one of those!).
Dylan is now 2 and is enjoying his daycare. He interacts well with the little kids at the daycare and is learning his numbers and colors. He is active and a whole lot of fun! This next step for him will be potty training! (cue scary music). We shall see how we handle all of that. He loves anything with wheels and locating school buses as they are 'yewwow wow!'.
Our little family is settling into everyday life and looking forward to purchasing a house somewhere on the horizon. We actually found one we like and may be in one sooner than we think!
This year a lot has happened (so cliche...but probably true most of the time)! Our little family took a big step out on faith and moved to Katy, TX from, well from wherever the job was before that - pretty much all over to one place :).
Tim is going to school to be an automotive technician and is loving it! He is doing well in school, and has passed 3 of his ASE certification tests already! I am immensely proud of the work he has put in and his success thus far in school, and he is excited to realize his goal of becoming a technician. Next year he plans on passing 6 more certification exams and becoming a Master Tech after his experience requirement is met, and hopes to get a job at a dealership as an assistant to get some hands on training. He is still loving video games, hanging out with our little man and working on Mia (his project car).
Jessica (that's me!) has made a change in career and is looking forward to what the next year may bring with the company she is currently employed with. I (sorry had to change tenses the 3rd person thing was weird) am loving being able to be home every night and to have a place to be able to become involved with a community and church. I joined a small book club and am enjoying interacting and reading new and different things! (I have ALWAYS wanted to be in one of those!).
Dylan is now 2 and is enjoying his daycare. He interacts well with the little kids at the daycare and is learning his numbers and colors. He is active and a whole lot of fun! This next step for him will be potty training! (cue scary music). We shall see how we handle all of that. He loves anything with wheels and locating school buses as they are 'yewwow wow!'.
Our little family is settling into everyday life and looking forward to purchasing a house somewhere on the horizon. We actually found one we like and may be in one sooner than we think!
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