I know this is probably something most people don't consider a testament. But I have never gone this long, and I am proud! Its been 5 days! 5 days!

Dylan - Almost 1 year old!

Dylan is growing up so fast! He just started day care yesterday, and it was a scary/sad/exciting day for both Tim & myself. I knew that it was something he needed - the interaction with other kids, and I am glad we finally did it. He LOVES it! All our fears were for nothing, because he went right in and didn't cry and loved playing and interacting with everyone from the very minute we went in.

Hoping for Change

I hate being in the waiting period. I hate being still. I have discovered lately more about myself than I care to admit. I am impatient. I have great expectations for the future, and I think my problem is differentiating between expectations and excited anticipation and anxious unproductive worry and self-pity.

I want things to change in my life. I want a different job, and roots. Those things are ok to want. My problem is I have been sitting around vascillating between wanting these things and feeling sorry for myself because I don't have these, and no one is listening to my wants or cares what I want..blah blah blah. I'm sure you see where this is going. It's the uncertainty and insecurity in the unknown that is hard for me to handle.

I am secure in the fact that I am loved - and loved unconditionally. I am certain I am blessed beyond my wildest comprehension. I don't deserve what I have, and I am so thankful that inspite of all my everything I am loved and blessed. Grace amazes me...

Sometimes it just takes looking at things from a different perspective, and this time I'm going to try to embrace my certainties and securities, and let go of the unknown - that's not my department anyhow :)

my prayer for my everyday

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to You.

Life as I know it

You know, I have been thinking about what we are dealing with bill wise in my life, and I can't help but feel guilty. It's my fault we are in the debt we are in, Tim didn't do any of it. But somehow, we are okay with it. We are managing fine, and happy to boot! God has been so good to us, and it's evident tome, if I simply stop and take the time to see it. You have to chose to want to see what He has done for you. Ignoring God and what He is doing can be easy, I suppose. I did it for a long time! It's so nice to be able to stop and look around in wonder at how He has been working all around me all along!
On a side note, my mom sent me words of encouragement earlier this week, and I have to admit I cried. I'm so stinking sentimental these days! Her note was simple,and yet it warmed my heart. "I’m proud of how you are handling all the changes in your life!
It hasn’t been easy, but you have come through the storm." *sigh* My life is great! I feel so free...such a great feeling!

6 mths!

Little Dylan is getting big! He is already 6 mths old! Here's some fun things about Dylan so far:
-he loves to bounce! In your arms, on the floor and in his bouncer!
-he has tried almost all of the Gerber first foods and has been eager to eat them all!
-he weighs 15 lbs 1 oz
-he was unable to be properly measured cause of his wiggle worm qualities, but we are guessing between 27 and 28 inches!
-the doctor said he's healthy and a tall and skinny baby. She predicted he's going to be.a beanpole
-he rolls over constantly! He loves it and is really getting good at it!
These first 6 mths have flown, but I've enjoyed everything. I can't wait to see what's in store next!

Back to Work

I'm traveling back to Louisiana tomorrow with Tim and D to go to work on Friday. Sooooo exciting, huh? My thoughts exactly. I really need to start looking for a job that's more stable and permenant. And I'm hoping when Tim finds one ill have an approximate salary to shoot for. My I really hope this is attainable for us! I'm praying it is and it happens just like its supposed to!
My little man has a Dr appt tomorrow. His 6 mth wellness check! I can't believe he's so big already! I thought I'd take the time to update you on some of his progress so far. At his 4 mth check up he was 13 lbs 3oz and 26 and a quarter inches long. Long skinny baby, just like his daddy! He can roll over like a pro and does so back and forth everytime you put him on the floor. He loves to play with toys and LOVES bath time! He's fairly laid back, with bouncing and rolling being his activities of choice. He has eaten everything we have given him with gusto and seems to like it all! I can hardly wait to give him the finger foods to see how he does on his own!