FOURTH OF JULY and other Randomness

So, again I fail at the blogging maintenance /sigh at me. Well at least I didn't go forever this time without blogging :). Bright side ppl, work with me here! Anyhow, here's just a brief whatever to show you some fabulous fourth of July photos, mostly because I <3 the fireworks :), yes I'm like a kid like that, thanks for noticing!

Sleepy

Sleep is something I either seem to get way too much of or way too little of. I stay up for days at a time or sleep for hours andhours and hours...Why can't I get the daily allotted amount of sleep you ask? My conclusion is because I'm retarded :). I seem to think that by going to bed early I will miss something extemely important in the world...but I have no problem stayin up all night then sleeping the day away. Looking at this realistically I have decided that I'm dumb...and there's no good reason to stay up all night just to sleep all day. But that's not the way I feel when I actually am up at 3am. I'm thinking, I'm having fun, I should just stay up, etc...I think I'd like it best if I never had to sleep...Random rants from a person who hasn't been to sleep in a while :). I didn't want to be neglectful, and since all I can possibly think about at the moment is sleeping I thought I would have an entire blog dedicated to the subject.
The bright side to staying up all night is that I have no problem getting to work on time or getting dressed like a semi-adult...:) The negatives, of course, are that I'm sleepy...DUH. Anyhow, perhaps one day I'll figure out why I'm retarded or realize that I'm not actually missing anything and I need to get some rest...I hope that day comes soon!

Whirlwind...

So, it's been a while...I've been very neglectful to my blog and my blogging audience of 1 (sorry Jenn). It's been a whirlwind couple of months...I'll give you an overview:

I've had an upper respiratory infection then an ear ache. After which I went to New York..AND IT WAS PHENOMINAL! Then I had another ear ache (ear aches really do suck big booty btw. I've had lots of time to be extremely lazy and screw up my internal clock even more (go me). I've been to Louisiana and ate crawfish and had some alcohol! (wooooohooo for LA!), did a mini job in Oklahoma (the first one completely on by myself!). I've gotten a miniature pinscher and named her Abby...who has become a royal pain in my ass. I have just started a 'training' job with a landman company just outside of Fort Worth and I'm learning the ins and outs of mineral title from patent which is sometimes really interesting and a lot of times really slow :) I like knowing it already!

:) YAY! I am excited I am back to blogging now...full force! I'll try not to let u down again! Here are some random pictures :).

Me

I've long done stupid surveys and taken tests that are supposed to reflect my personality and divulge who I am to me. I find these things amusing for the most part, and sometimes enlightening and eerily correct. I have long coasted on my brain and my thought processes. I have escaped answers by giving an overview without divulging the true answer that lies within me sometimes because I don't want to answer the question but more often than not to see if anyone else notices the lack of substance I've provided them with. Sadly, most people don't realize this. I am not trying to sound concieted, because I really don't think I know everything, but I tend to watch and assess more than most people. I'm an observer by nature and can usually read people really well. This is both a gift and a curse.
Sometimes I feel it's a curse because I feel as though no one truly knows me. I could expound on the lonliness with melodramatic flair, but it's not really lonliness...it's more of aloneness. Don't get me wrong, I believe this is entirely my fault. But being alone with your thoughts and the incessance of them can be a bit overwhelming, especially for me. I think too much. Very simply put...but sometimes simplicity is the best way to explain things. My thoughts run ceaslessly one overlapping the next, and I just jump from one to the next often appearing very random to those on the outside of my brain. :) But random works for me, so I'm ok with it. So even in the curse, though filled with longing at times for someone to know me in my entirety, I am ok and wouldn't change the way I am for anything.
On the flip side thinking too much has lots of advantages. My ability to think about ideas that would never be approved by normal society and the what ifs and what could bes that lie in everything is truly entertaining. I enjoy being able to think about things that most people would consider inappropriate simply because I can. I also enjoy thinking about situations from every possible angle...it appeals to my nature to want to think thoroughly through every situation.
Thinking back on some of these tests I have taken, I'll leave you with one of my results...
You Are a Seeker Soul You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).

Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.

New York or Bust!

Ok, I'm brimming with excitement this morning...which is unusual because it's MORNING. But I believe I have cause to be brimming, not that I ever need cause to be excited...and infact I generally have no specific reason, I just am.........anyhow, to the point. My mother and I have been trying to have a vacation with just the two of us for several years now, but do to many circumstances outside our control. My father was put in the hospital on our last big planned outing in which we planned to vacation in Europe for a couple of weeks. And ever since then things just haven't quite fallen into place to make it happen...until now.

I recently decided that regardless of what I seem to have planned or where I am in my life, spending time with my mother in this way is important to me and it's important to her, so I bit the bullet and planned a vacation. All this to say, I truly want to go on vacation with her, it's just sometimes hard for me to commit to that much money coming out of my pocket.

Now to the fun part..telling you about my vacation! We got together and decided a trip to New York was the way to go. I've always wanted to go as has she, and it's an experience we'd like to share with each other. We have no real set plans for what we're going to do beyond the Broadway show tickets I had to preorder and the hotel and plane reservations I made. So here's what we got so far: going to stay in a hotel just off Time Square, near the hubbub of New York City life according to the information blurb about the hotel, and we're going to see Hairspray and Wicked on Broadway.

I must admit, the Broadway shows are what I'm truly excited about! Not that New York in and of itself is not exciting for me, but musicals have always been something magical for me. All the music, and dancing, and singing combined with colorful sets always give me a sense of wonder and I get lost in it all. Besides the shows, we are just going to be big tourists and do all the things that make us look like we're not from New York. I can hardly wait!

Picture Surveys are fun!

Go to photobucket, type in the answer to your question and select & copy the HTML code...then paste it in the answer field!
FAVORITE MOVIE (pick one if you have many)
My favorite Movie

FAVORITE BAND (pick one if you have many):

FAVORITE TV SHOW (pick one if you have many):

FAVORITE ACTOR (pick one if you have many):

Not exactly sure why he's my fav, but he is!
FAVORITE ACTRESS (pick one if you have many):

BIGGEST FEAR:

HIGH SCHOOL MASCOT:

CAR YOU DRIVE:

Except not this color...:) one of many cars actually
PET YOU CURRENTLY HAVE:

2 brown ones like this...and a silver one :) Bengal kitties

FAVORITE NON-ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE:

FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE:

YOUR ZODIAC SIGN:
YOUR BIRTHDAY MONTH:

MOST MEMORABLE VACATION:

FAVORITE SPORT:
FAVORITE TEAM:

FAVORITE HOLIDAY:

I Am Not Nice Enough to Be...

Today I discovered things about myself. Exciting, huh? I love learning new things. Anyhow, from the beginning…I was thinking about me, and who I am and my personality in relation to jobs etc and which I'd clearly lack the 'niceness' quality to be. By niceness quality, I'm talking about the one that is comforting to all, regardless of your actions and how stupid whatever you just did was, and truly finding the strength to want to help this person without beating sense into them.

For example, nursing is a profession beyond what I could ever undertake. For one, I can't do blood or insert needles into someone, I think I would throw up...or pass-out or both, which is probably a prereq to being in the field. You cannot throw up or pass out on patients probably ranks right up there with washing your hands before you touch them or something. But the other quality I think I'm lacking is my inability to not want to hit someone who lets say ran with scissors and got them stuck in his nose. Or pushed popcorn kernels in his ears...these things would be a trifle annoying to me. Kids are understandably going to stick stuff places, but adults should definitely know better. I would probably laugh at the first adult that came in with something like that wrong with them On the flipside to that coin, I also think I would bring too much emotion to the table for a family that was going through something hard…crying with them, trying to comfort them, getting too close. In short, nursing is not for me.

Come to think of it, I don’t think I could do any of the medical professions well…see above for reasons. Even psychiatry would be difficult for me, while the blood issue would be moot, I would still have problems with people wallowing and their inability to move on after a certain period of time. After a while, I’m afraid, I would tell them to just do something already and stop being stupid. This is probably not the best thing to tell someone who is seeing a psychiatrist. Then there would also be the cases where I would get too close, and feel too much taking on their problems as my own. That would be exhausting.
My issue that would fluctuate between wanting people to stop being stupid, and wanting to help so much their problems became my own keeps me out of the professions that require the ‘niceness’ quality. Instead, I will doodlebug having to deal with issues beyond what is personal in nature is much easier for me to distance myself from. While people are stupid everywhere, and I’m including myself in that category, it’s always easier for me to take the easy way out of dealing with them personally. This is because I’m not tolerant enough, and also because I am too empathetic….weird combo, I know.